1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.BZ 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.BZ 3 00:03:00,481 --> 00:03:02,216 >> Talk Show Host: Ten points lower for the word, first. 4 00:03:02,283 --> 00:03:03,551 What was wrong with it? 5 00:03:03,617 --> 00:03:05,919 >> Rick: Well I thought the first one was too rough. 6 00:03:05,986 --> 00:03:09,957 But compared to the second one, which was a lot easier-going- 7 00:03:17,398 --> 00:03:18,532 >> Rick's aunt: From Topeka, Maryland, 8 00:03:18,599 --> 00:03:21,134 Morris Total news nine. 9 00:03:21,201 --> 00:03:23,036 >> Rick: Sir, what is the toga to you? 10 00:03:23,103 --> 00:03:25,205 >> Student: Well, the toga is definitely a phallic symbol 11 00:03:25,273 --> 00:03:29,042 representing the sexual freedom at the time. 12 00:03:29,109 --> 00:03:30,944 >> Rick: Good evening I'm Rick Kirkham. 13 00:03:31,011 --> 00:03:32,746 >> Rick: Good morning I'm Rick Kirkham. 14 00:03:32,813 --> 00:03:35,949 >> Rick: Reporting from North Texas, Rick Kirkham NBC News. 15 00:03:36,016 --> 00:03:37,084 >> Rick: Mr. Brokaw, Rick Kirkham 16 00:03:37,150 --> 00:03:38,552 with the affiliate in Wichita Falls. 17 00:03:38,619 --> 00:03:39,453 >> Tom Brokaw: Hi, how are you? 18 00:03:39,520 --> 00:03:40,921 >> Reporter: Who are you with? 19 00:03:40,988 --> 00:03:42,456 >> Rick: Rick Kirkham, with TV 3 in Wichita Falls Texas. 20 00:03:42,523 --> 00:03:43,691 >> Reporter: uh huh, that's right. 21 00:03:43,757 --> 00:03:45,025 >> Rick: Is it hard to handle the stardom 22 00:03:45,092 --> 00:03:46,260 that the network stars are getting in comparison 23 00:03:46,327 --> 00:03:48,329 with the political stars here? 24 00:03:52,132 --> 00:03:53,934 >> Rick: Things have quieted down here on the strip only 25 00:03:54,001 --> 00:03:55,269 in the last hour or so 26 00:03:55,336 --> 00:03:56,470 >> Rick: Walker went back and forth 27 00:03:56,537 --> 00:03:58,272 to the house continually screaming several times 28 00:03:58,339 --> 00:04:00,841 for the police to shoot him 29 00:04:05,012 --> 00:04:07,481 >> Rick: Going along on a raid requires a lengthy debriefing 30 00:04:07,548 --> 00:04:09,383 as well as a bullet-proof vest. 31 00:04:09,450 --> 00:04:10,150 >> Police: Freeze! 32 00:04:10,217 --> 00:04:12,252 Hands up! Don't move! 33 00:04:12,320 --> 00:04:14,087 >> Rick: This raid is part of a major crackdown 34 00:04:14,154 --> 00:04:16,757 on crack, or rock cocaine. 35 00:04:21,329 --> 00:04:23,497 >> Rick: As long as drug dealers supply this, 36 00:04:23,564 --> 00:04:26,400 customers will continue to supply this. 37 00:04:33,474 --> 00:04:35,676 >> Reporter: Rick Kirkham is in Oakland at the site 38 00:04:35,743 --> 00:04:37,110 of the rescue attempts. 39 00:04:37,177 --> 00:04:39,313 >> Rick: Bill I'm standing about 60 yards away now 40 00:04:39,380 --> 00:04:41,014 from the worst scene of destruction here 41 00:04:41,081 --> 00:04:42,650 in here the Oakland area. 42 00:04:42,716 --> 00:04:44,718 >> Rick: This was the scene just seven hours after the delivery 43 00:04:44,785 --> 00:04:46,987 of the verdict in the Rodney King case. 44 00:04:47,054 --> 00:04:48,221 >> Rick: According to Bert Wilkoff, 45 00:04:48,288 --> 00:04:50,223 it was his girlfriend Stephanie Pacheevus 46 00:04:50,290 --> 00:04:52,292 and his own son Michael who took this weapon 47 00:04:52,360 --> 00:04:53,994 to the apartment that night. 48 00:04:54,061 --> 00:04:55,463 >> Sandra: Good morning Rick. 49 00:04:55,529 --> 00:04:56,997 >> Rick: Good morning Sandra and good morning Australia. 50 00:04:57,064 --> 00:04:59,933 >> Rick: Why is it that you have done so many good things? 51 00:05:00,000 --> 00:05:01,935 >> Rick: What basically is happening down here Chuck? 52 00:05:02,002 --> 00:05:03,704 >> George Bush Sr: This guy is a real point of light 53 00:05:03,771 --> 00:05:05,906 and he can do far more than government can do. 54 00:05:05,973 --> 00:05:09,109 >> Rick: Have a great weekend. 55 00:05:17,017 --> 00:05:19,052 >> Rick: It's February 28, 1990 56 00:05:19,119 --> 00:05:21,254 >> Rick: September 17, 1991 57 00:05:21,321 --> 00:05:24,157 >> Rick: It's the 29th of June 1992 58 00:05:24,224 --> 00:05:26,059 >> Rick: Here I am, in Jamaica. 59 00:05:26,126 --> 00:05:27,861 >> Rick: Christ Church, New Zealand. 60 00:05:27,928 --> 00:05:29,963 >> Rick: It was London then back to New York then 61 00:05:30,030 --> 00:05:33,033 to Vegas, LA onto New Zealand 62 00:05:33,100 --> 00:05:36,269 >> Rick: I've interviewed Dick Clark, Joe Walsh, Johanna Lulu 63 00:05:36,336 --> 00:05:38,972 for the weekend back to California for the weekend 64 00:05:39,039 --> 00:05:41,975 >> Rick: I've uh spent the day with the playmate of the year 65 00:05:42,042 --> 00:05:43,677 out on lake mead jet skiing. 66 00:05:43,744 --> 00:05:47,247 And here I am, back in Caesars Palace in Las Vegas. 67 00:05:47,314 --> 00:05:50,584 >> Rick: There's been a lot of bad things as well. 68 00:05:50,651 --> 00:05:52,753 A lot of problems that I've had, personal problems, 69 00:05:52,820 --> 00:05:55,389 >> Rick: A minor cocaine problem has has snuck up again, 70 00:05:55,456 --> 00:05:57,190 and it has to be nipped in the bud. 71 00:05:57,257 --> 00:05:59,493 Screwing up every relationship that comes along, 72 00:05:59,560 --> 00:06:02,396 not wanting to work now that I've hit the peak of success 73 00:06:02,463 --> 00:06:05,899 and then life was going down and I've been in- into, 74 00:06:05,966 --> 00:06:09,302 into that pattern now for over a year. 75 00:06:09,369 --> 00:06:12,906 >> Rick: This video may prove may prove very beneficial 76 00:06:12,973 --> 00:06:14,675 >> Rick: It's been a good year. 77 00:06:14,742 --> 00:06:19,012 Season's over with now, uh, I got the senior reporter title, 78 00:06:19,079 --> 00:06:22,082 Had some really good shows this year. 79 00:06:22,149 --> 00:06:23,717 I thought that'd I travel 80 00:06:23,784 --> 00:06:27,421 around Europe I brought a backpack, and uh, that's it. 81 00:06:27,488 --> 00:06:29,590 Passport and money. 82 00:06:29,657 --> 00:06:32,325 So I'm gonna take some pictures im gonna check out all of Europe 83 00:06:32,392 --> 00:06:36,964 by train and check out Amsterdam. 84 00:06:43,203 --> 00:06:46,907 >> Rick: Hey, hey what can I say Brussels, Belgium. 85 00:06:50,110 --> 00:06:51,812 >> Rick: Dusseldorf, Germany 86 00:06:56,016 --> 00:06:57,217 >> Rick: We're in Paris now. 87 00:06:57,284 --> 00:06:58,452 We're with the girls, they're gonna take me 88 00:06:58,519 --> 00:07:00,721 out get me in trouble. 89 00:07:02,089 --> 00:07:04,625 >> Rick: These people are crazy here in Spain. 90 00:07:11,031 --> 00:07:12,165 >> Rick: Good afternoon. 91 00:07:12,232 --> 00:07:14,134 Welcome to my humble abode here on the ocean. 92 00:07:14,201 --> 00:07:17,571 Let me just put it this way, I if I did die I went 93 00:07:17,638 --> 00:07:19,673 out the way I wanted to go. 94 00:07:19,740 --> 00:07:21,942 In a blaze of glory. 95 00:07:22,009 --> 00:07:25,946 >> Rick: ready for a cigarette yeah. 96 00:07:26,013 --> 00:07:28,582 Ok, it's the second day of November 1992. 97 00:07:28,649 --> 00:07:31,852 I'm working here in Christchurch, New Zealand and a couple 98 00:07:31,919 --> 00:07:34,087 of days ago I found out that my girlfriend back 99 00:07:34,154 --> 00:07:36,056 in the states, Tami, is pregnant. 100 00:07:36,123 --> 00:07:38,692 Quite a shock and uh I guess it's gonna result 101 00:07:38,759 --> 00:07:43,697 in quite a change in my life, um, I fully intend to marry her 102 00:07:43,764 --> 00:07:46,700 and I love her a lot and I'll love our child. 103 00:07:46,767 --> 00:07:50,303 And I can only say that to my unborn child whenever you watch 104 00:07:50,370 --> 00:07:52,906 this someday, you may not have been planned 105 00:07:52,973 --> 00:07:56,209 but you'll be welcomed into the world and ill be so glad 106 00:07:56,276 --> 00:07:59,880 that uh everything worked out the way it did. 107 00:07:59,947 --> 00:08:04,317 >> Rick: I'm in love with a Texas girl, 108 00:08:04,384 --> 00:08:07,921 she means all the world. 109 00:08:07,988 --> 00:08:12,225 To me. 110 00:08:12,292 --> 00:08:15,929 When she walks into the room, 111 00:08:15,996 --> 00:08:20,300 I can smell her sweet perfume 112 00:08:20,367 --> 00:08:23,336 Her eyes they look at me. 113 00:08:23,403 --> 00:08:26,106 I see that she loves me. 114 00:08:28,008 --> 00:08:28,576 >> Rick: You're nervous. 115 00:08:28,642 --> 00:08:29,309 look at that. 116 00:08:29,376 --> 00:08:32,245 >> Family: 117 00:08:32,312 --> 00:08:35,215 >> Rick: That's, that's 34 years of waiting. 118 00:08:35,282 --> 00:08:37,350 Tami Carrell will you marry me? 119 00:08:37,417 --> 00:08:38,619 >> Tami: Yes 120 00:08:42,022 --> 00:08:43,657 >> Rick: well, here it is Christmas morning 121 00:08:43,724 --> 00:08:45,826 and look what Tami is doing. 122 00:08:47,327 --> 00:08:49,763 >> Tami: I'm gonna kill you 123 00:08:49,830 --> 00:08:51,064 >> Rick: What ya doin' honey? 124 00:08:51,131 --> 00:08:52,766 >> Tami: Get that thing off me. 125 00:08:52,833 --> 00:08:54,968 >> Rick: Hey be nice, it's Christmas day. 126 00:08:55,035 --> 00:08:57,070 >> Tami: I don't care, I look terrible. 127 00:08:57,137 --> 00:08:58,371 >> Rick: I think it's a great Christmas 128 00:08:58,438 --> 00:09:01,041 if Tami would just smile and have a good time. 129 00:09:07,047 --> 00:09:08,181 >> Rick: You've been crying? 130 00:09:08,248 --> 00:09:09,049 >> Tami: I'm gonna slap the shit out of you. 131 00:09:09,116 --> 00:09:10,083 >> Rick: You have. 132 00:09:10,150 --> 00:09:11,351 >> Tami: I know I've been crying. 133 00:09:11,418 --> 00:09:12,786 We've already talked about it so don't try 134 00:09:12,853 --> 00:09:14,822 to get it on videotape. 135 00:09:16,056 --> 00:09:17,124 >> Rick: Why don't you tell me 136 00:09:17,190 --> 00:09:17,891 about the burdens you dealing with? 137 00:09:17,958 --> 00:09:19,392 >> Tami: Repeat. 138 00:09:19,459 --> 00:09:20,560 Rewind. Zzz. 139 00:09:20,628 --> 00:09:23,697 Instant replay of what just happened. 140 00:09:23,764 --> 00:09:24,898 >> Rick: No. 141 00:09:24,965 --> 00:09:26,667 Just tell me what you're feeling burdened about? 142 00:09:27,868 --> 00:09:29,002 >> Tami: Life. 143 00:09:29,069 --> 00:09:30,303 >> Rick: 144 00:09:30,370 --> 00:09:31,805 It's just after Christmas hun. 145 00:09:31,872 --> 00:09:33,774 New years is this weekend. 146 00:09:33,841 --> 00:09:35,909 You're gonna get married in about 3 and a half weeks. 147 00:09:35,976 --> 00:09:36,677 What's the problem? 148 00:09:36,744 --> 00:09:37,911 You should be excited. 149 00:09:37,978 --> 00:09:39,412 >> Tami: I wanna throw up 150 00:09:39,479 --> 00:09:42,215 >> Rick: Why aren't you excited? Huh? 151 00:09:42,282 --> 00:09:44,517 >> Tami: 'Cause I wanna run away. 152 00:09:44,584 --> 00:09:46,219 >> Rick: Why are you putting me on camera? 153 00:09:46,286 --> 00:09:47,921 >> Tami: You what? 154 00:09:47,988 --> 00:09:49,122 >> Rick: I what what? 155 00:09:49,189 --> 00:09:50,791 >> Tami: What'd you say about the wedding band? 156 00:09:51,091 --> 00:09:52,425 >> Rick: 157 00:09:52,492 --> 00:09:53,727 I'm making my list 158 00:09:53,794 --> 00:09:55,528 >> Tami: What'd you say about the wedding band? 159 00:09:55,595 --> 00:09:57,330 >> Rick: I'm making my list here of everything- 160 00:09:57,397 --> 00:09:58,632 >> Tami: And checking it twice? 161 00:09:58,699 --> 00:09:59,933 >> Rick: -that has to be done 162 00:10:00,000 --> 00:10:00,734 >> Tami: You what? 163 00:10:00,801 --> 00:10:02,235 >> Rick: And I- 164 00:10:02,302 --> 00:10:03,103 >> Tami: If you're not wearing your wedding band we're not 165 00:10:03,170 --> 00:10:04,938 getting married. 166 00:10:05,005 --> 00:10:07,908 >> Rick: I just asked if I could put the wedding band 167 00:10:07,975 --> 00:10:10,343 on the list? 168 00:10:10,410 --> 00:10:13,046 >> Tami: Are you wearing a wedding band? 169 00:10:13,113 --> 00:10:14,281 >> Rick: We could just cut right to- 170 00:10:14,347 --> 00:10:15,949 I don't wanna wear a wearing wedding band. 171 00:10:16,016 --> 00:10:17,250 I don't like rings. 172 00:10:17,317 --> 00:10:18,618 >> Tami: Then, Then we're not getting married. 173 00:10:18,686 --> 00:10:19,619 >> Rick: C'mon hun. 174 00:10:19,687 --> 00:10:20,954 >> Tami: Nope. >> Rick: Tami. 175 00:10:21,021 --> 00:10:22,022 >> Family member: You nervous yet? 176 00:10:22,089 --> 00:10:23,156 >> Rick: I'm getting a little. 177 00:10:23,223 --> 00:10:25,793 Just a little. 178 00:10:39,740 --> 00:10:40,741 >> Crowd: Cheers 179 00:10:40,808 --> 00:10:41,574 >> Old Relative: You said I could go 180 00:10:41,641 --> 00:10:42,743 on the honeymoon with ya. 181 00:10:58,058 --> 00:10:59,192 >> Tami: Hmm, what? 182 00:10:59,259 --> 00:11:00,360 >> Rick: Are you getting a little nervous 183 00:11:00,427 --> 00:11:01,561 to find out what it is? 184 00:11:01,628 --> 00:11:03,964 >> Tami: Yeah. Are you? 185 00:11:04,031 --> 00:11:04,732 >> Rick: What do you want it to be? 186 00:11:04,798 --> 00:11:05,966 >> Tami: I don't care 187 00:11:06,033 --> 00:11:08,368 >> Rick: I'm anxious to know what it is too. 188 00:11:17,177 --> 00:11:18,345 >> Doctor: It looks like a boy. 189 00:11:18,411 --> 00:11:19,479 >> Rick: Are you sure? >> Tami: 190 00:11:19,546 --> 00:11:20,914 >> Doctor: It's what it looks like. 191 00:11:20,981 --> 00:11:21,815 >> Rick: Cuz it really- I mean can you really? 192 00:11:21,882 --> 00:11:22,983 >> Doctor: Sure looks like it. 193 00:11:23,050 --> 00:11:24,417 >> Tami: It is. I think so. 194 00:11:24,484 --> 00:11:26,086 >> Rick: How- How often can you be wrong? 195 00:11:26,153 --> 00:11:30,090 >> Now See look, see those two little things right there? 196 00:11:30,157 --> 00:11:31,825 They look like testicles to me. 197 00:11:31,892 --> 00:11:32,926 >> Rick: Yes! 198 00:11:32,993 --> 00:11:34,027 A Ricky Junior. 199 00:11:34,094 --> 00:11:36,463 Oh god. 200 00:11:46,706 --> 00:11:48,909 >> Rick: This is the Inside Edition big island bureau. 201 00:11:50,410 --> 00:11:51,544 Where we don't do fuck. 202 00:11:51,611 --> 00:11:53,947 This is the incriminating evidence 203 00:11:54,014 --> 00:11:56,616 at the Inside Edition bureau on the big island. 204 00:11:56,683 --> 00:11:57,818 Tank makers. 205 00:11:57,885 --> 00:12:01,955 Tank makers pump out and they make big buck story 206 00:12:02,022 --> 00:12:04,057 >> Reporter: So after basically ripping off the fucking Hawaiian 207 00:12:04,124 --> 00:12:05,959 bats for all their weed down here, have a look at this. 208 00:12:06,026 --> 00:12:09,963 A pack of Lo-lo. We told them a lot of lies. 209 00:12:10,030 --> 00:12:11,531 We told them we'd tell their story but that's bullshit. 210 00:12:11,598 --> 00:12:13,533 We're not gonna tell their story we're just doing a story 211 00:12:13,600 --> 00:12:15,168 about a bunch of fucking lunatic bats. 212 00:12:15,235 --> 00:12:16,736 We have dope. 213 00:12:30,117 --> 00:12:32,920 >> Rick: C'mon Tookie can we be wild when we take off? 214 00:12:38,058 --> 00:12:43,897 >> Rick: Well it's, uh, May 9, 1993 and, phew, 215 00:12:43,964 --> 00:12:47,868 I'm checked in as an in-patient in the, uh, 216 00:12:47,935 --> 00:12:49,202 chemical dependency unit 217 00:12:49,269 --> 00:12:52,305 at Hoag Memorial Hospital here in Newport Beach. 218 00:12:52,372 --> 00:12:55,475 And it's something I guess that I needed to do 219 00:12:55,542 --> 00:12:58,311 for the last ten years, maybe fifteen years, 220 00:12:58,378 --> 00:13:02,315 and as much as I didn't want to, I'm glad that it's all come 221 00:13:02,382 --> 00:13:04,017 down the way that it has. 222 00:13:04,084 --> 00:13:06,820 The boss has intervened with me about ten days ago. 223 00:13:06,887 --> 00:13:08,321 I've been in the program a week 224 00:13:08,388 --> 00:13:12,425 and it was probably the greatest thing anyone ever did for me. 225 00:13:12,492 --> 00:13:14,995 They set everything up and 226 00:13:15,062 --> 00:13:16,629 standing behind me a hundred percent so I can get rid 227 00:13:16,696 --> 00:13:18,731 of this cocaine problem. 228 00:13:18,798 --> 00:13:21,034 Never thought I'd end up in a chemical dependency 229 00:13:21,101 --> 00:13:22,735 unit though. 230 00:13:22,802 --> 00:13:25,338 It uh....Real blow to the ego at first. 231 00:13:25,405 --> 00:13:27,440 But then when you understand it's a disease 232 00:13:27,507 --> 00:13:30,510 and that something you have to treat, y'know, 233 00:13:30,577 --> 00:13:33,613 with a recovery program you begin to feel a lot better. 234 00:13:33,680 --> 00:13:36,749 So anyway, things are gonna be great this summer. 235 00:13:36,816 --> 00:13:40,653 My first child will be here in couple of months and Tami 236 00:13:40,720 --> 00:13:42,522 and I will have uh beginning a perfect life 237 00:13:42,589 --> 00:13:43,823 that we always wanted. 238 00:13:43,891 --> 00:13:48,896 So a couple more weeks of CDU and I'm going home. 239 00:13:50,030 --> 00:13:51,031 >> Tami: 240 00:13:51,098 --> 00:13:52,465 >> Rick: He's coming honey, look! 241 00:14:10,117 --> 00:14:11,952 >> Doctor: All right! 242 00:14:14,021 --> 00:14:16,389 >> Rick: What you call real first home movies, huh? 243 00:14:16,456 --> 00:14:18,091 My grandma just became a great grandma. 244 00:14:18,158 --> 00:14:21,094 And my mom a grandma for the first time. 245 00:14:21,161 --> 00:14:22,462 >> Tami: And you a daddy. 246 00:14:22,529 --> 00:14:24,164 >> Relative: Yeah. 247 00:14:24,231 --> 00:14:27,000 >> Rick: June 28, 1993. 248 00:14:27,067 --> 00:14:28,701 Little Ricky is here. 249 00:14:28,768 --> 00:14:32,605 Nothing really seems all that important anymore except, uh, 250 00:14:32,672 --> 00:14:36,977 making sure that that Tami and Ricky are happy and healthy. 251 00:14:38,045 --> 00:14:40,713 I laid in bed all night last night watching her get 252 00:14:40,780 --> 00:14:42,215 up with him and I kept thinking, 253 00:14:42,282 --> 00:14:44,217 God don't let anything happen to him. 254 00:14:44,284 --> 00:14:45,418 Don't let him get sick, 255 00:14:45,485 --> 00:14:48,488 don't let him stop breathing or anything. 256 00:14:48,555 --> 00:14:50,590 This is what it's all about. 257 00:14:52,059 --> 00:14:56,329 We've started our family and I've waited a long time 258 00:14:56,396 --> 00:14:58,999 for it, I'm glad it's here. 259 00:15:06,206 --> 00:15:09,209 >> Rick: Hey, are you trying to break into this house? 260 00:15:09,276 --> 00:15:10,043 >> Tami: Yeah. 261 00:15:10,110 --> 00:15:11,979 >> Rick: M'kay. 262 00:15:13,213 --> 00:15:17,217 As you come in, you have a nice view here. 263 00:15:17,284 --> 00:15:19,852 immediately off to the left we have the dining room. 264 00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:22,255 Here's the formal living room. 265 00:15:22,322 --> 00:15:23,756 And the study of course, 266 00:15:23,823 --> 00:15:26,159 with the French window pane doors, notice that. 267 00:15:26,226 --> 00:15:27,294 That was my option. 268 00:15:27,360 --> 00:15:29,562 And a key lock to keep the kids out. 269 00:15:29,629 --> 00:15:32,632 It's also designed to keep Tami out. 270 00:15:34,334 --> 00:15:36,970 >> Tami: Get this on tape. 271 00:15:37,037 --> 00:15:38,138 Uh, never mind. 272 00:15:38,205 --> 00:15:40,073 I thought he was gonna roll over. 273 00:15:40,140 --> 00:15:43,443 >> Rick: this could be a big event here on live television. 274 00:15:43,510 --> 00:15:46,046 As he tries to roll over only for the second time. 275 00:15:46,113 --> 00:15:47,947 >> Tami: Push on over. 276 00:15:51,051 --> 00:15:52,852 There you go. 277 00:15:59,059 --> 00:16:02,895 >> Rick: Are you having fun now? 278 00:16:02,962 --> 00:16:05,798 Are you daddy's goony, huh? 279 00:16:05,865 --> 00:16:07,900 Are you daddy's gooby? 280 00:16:07,967 --> 00:16:09,902 Santa's going off to play with the elf. 281 00:16:09,969 --> 00:16:12,539 >> Tami and Rick: 282 00:16:12,972 --> 00:16:16,076 >> Rick: This has gotta be the worst part of the last nine- 283 00:16:16,143 --> 00:16:19,112 ten months, is that Tami's gotta take me to the airport 284 00:16:19,179 --> 00:16:20,880 so I can fly back to new york and go back to work. 285 00:16:20,947 --> 00:16:24,317 For almost ten months now, we've been doing this, where I fly 286 00:16:24,384 --> 00:16:27,920 for a couple days every two weeks. 287 00:16:27,987 --> 00:16:30,990 I know it tears her up, and it's really tough on me. 288 00:16:31,058 --> 00:16:35,128 And god only knows about him, it's gotta be hard on him too. 289 00:16:35,195 --> 00:16:39,732 But, if we can just hang in there I know 290 00:16:39,799 --> 00:16:40,700 that things can work out. 291 00:16:41,701 --> 00:16:43,470 It makes it really difficult. 292 00:16:49,008 --> 00:16:50,310 >> Rick: We've been waiting a long time for this. 293 00:16:50,377 --> 00:16:51,411 Here it is. Race time. 294 00:17:04,023 --> 00:17:05,058 >> Sports announcers: So at the line. 295 00:17:05,125 --> 00:17:06,426 It's Kirkham. 296 00:17:09,129 --> 00:17:11,164 Now let's go down and meet our winner, 297 00:17:11,231 --> 00:17:13,133 Rick Kirkham in Victory Circle. 298 00:17:13,200 --> 00:17:14,667 >> Rick: I don't think I've ever been on top 299 00:17:14,734 --> 00:17:16,169 of the world quite like this before. 300 00:17:16,236 --> 00:17:17,170 You can't describe this feeling. 301 00:17:17,237 --> 00:17:18,471 >> Friend: No you can't. 302 00:17:18,538 --> 00:17:19,472 >> Rick: There's no way to describe this feeling. 303 00:17:19,539 --> 00:17:20,940 >> Friend: Nope. 304 00:17:21,007 --> 00:17:22,375 >> Rick: I just can't imagine 305 00:17:22,442 --> 00:17:26,079 that the inside adventure series has done so well. 306 00:17:26,146 --> 00:17:28,281 This career is so important to me because of coming 307 00:17:28,348 --> 00:17:30,350 from no where, y'know just a kid 308 00:17:30,417 --> 00:17:32,185 from Oklahoma I wanna be somebody, 309 00:17:32,252 --> 00:17:34,987 I wanna be something big that people talk about that people 310 00:17:35,054 --> 00:17:36,356 respect and admire. 311 00:17:36,423 --> 00:17:38,091 This is going to be a big year in my career, um, 312 00:17:38,158 --> 00:17:44,397 my only hope is that I can keep my family tight and together 313 00:17:44,464 --> 00:17:47,867 and not lose Tami and not lose the opportunity to be 314 00:17:47,934 --> 00:17:49,302 with Ricky growing up. 315 00:17:49,369 --> 00:17:53,106 I want that family and uh and I feel like the best way 316 00:17:53,173 --> 00:17:55,508 to provide them with everything they wanted in life is 317 00:17:55,575 --> 00:17:58,611 to keep this career going as it is. 318 00:17:58,678 --> 00:18:02,682 That's about where I'm standing right now, hanging in there. 319 00:18:05,152 --> 00:18:07,920 >> Rick: Happy fathers day to me. 320 00:18:07,987 --> 00:18:11,124 Happy fathers day to me. 321 00:18:11,191 --> 00:18:14,294 And there's my little guy who made it all possible. 322 00:18:15,995 --> 00:18:18,198 Hey little man, what you doing out of your robe? 323 00:18:18,265 --> 00:18:19,232 >> Tami: Can you see him? 324 00:18:19,299 --> 00:18:20,933 >> Rick: No. 325 00:18:21,000 --> 00:18:22,935 >> Tami: Come here daddy. 326 00:18:23,002 --> 00:18:25,405 >> Rick: How come you not wearing your robe? 327 00:18:25,472 --> 00:18:26,939 That's weird. 328 00:18:27,006 --> 00:18:27,940 Where ya going? 329 00:18:28,007 --> 00:18:30,310 >> Tami: Oh my god! 330 00:18:41,020 --> 00:18:43,956 >> Tami: That's funny. 331 00:18:44,023 --> 00:18:47,026 >> Rick: Last week, Tami told me she was pregnant 332 00:18:47,093 --> 00:18:48,561 which is pretty exciting. 333 00:18:48,628 --> 00:18:51,164 it has really opened my eyes to the fact that I have 334 00:18:51,231 --> 00:18:54,467 to really stay ambitious and keep things going and I need 335 00:18:54,534 --> 00:18:56,969 to change and, it's like, ready get out of the 336 00:18:57,036 --> 00:18:59,472 business if I can't get something bigger 337 00:18:59,539 --> 00:19:01,241 and better going. 338 00:19:01,308 --> 00:19:05,478 I need to get healthy, I need to exercise, uh, 339 00:19:05,545 --> 00:19:07,747 I need to stay away from the vices of all kinds. 340 00:19:07,814 --> 00:19:10,483 I need to find 341 00:19:10,550 --> 00:19:16,088 that, that that light that charges me 342 00:19:16,155 --> 00:19:22,395 and helps me really look at what's going on 343 00:19:22,462 --> 00:19:24,364 and what's ahead of me. 344 00:19:25,965 --> 00:19:27,700 >> Tami: My husband's gone. 345 00:19:27,767 --> 00:19:31,404 He wanted on videotape of him leaving and all that. 346 00:19:31,471 --> 00:19:34,006 But what he doesn't ever videotape is momma getting up, 347 00:19:34,073 --> 00:19:37,610 making coffee, making bottles, changing diapers, 348 00:19:37,677 --> 00:19:41,314 ironing shirts, getting his suits together, 349 00:19:41,381 --> 00:19:43,416 picking out ties. 350 00:19:43,483 --> 00:19:47,920 Anyway, I love my husband and now hes off 351 00:19:47,987 --> 00:19:50,990 to earn his living now he's gonna have a very very busy busy 352 00:19:51,057 --> 00:19:55,728 day cause he's working hard and he's trying to do real good 353 00:19:55,795 --> 00:19:58,097 for them and for the family. 354 00:20:02,001 --> 00:20:03,703 >> Rick: I'm sure someday I'll appreciate the fact that I sat 355 00:20:03,770 --> 00:20:05,938 down and videotaped this. 356 00:20:06,005 --> 00:20:09,509 Although it's very uncomfortable doing so. 357 00:20:09,576 --> 00:20:14,647 Today is my 37th birthday and here I am sitting here, 358 00:20:14,714 --> 00:20:18,651 fiending, to get these things out and get 'em 359 00:20:18,718 --> 00:20:23,956 into a makeshift little pipe so that I can get a buzz. 360 00:20:24,023 --> 00:20:26,259 And that's how horrible the addiction is, 361 00:20:26,326 --> 00:20:29,662 and yet it takes over your mind. 362 00:20:29,729 --> 00:20:32,131 I mean the whole time back in the cab ride from 93rd 363 00:20:32,198 --> 00:20:36,369 and Amsterdam where I've been countless times. 364 00:20:36,436 --> 00:20:40,573 All I'm doing is trying to hold down my stomach 365 00:20:40,640 --> 00:20:43,743 because it's anticipation of what's to come 366 00:20:44,844 --> 00:20:51,150 and, y'know, keep the shakes from setting in. 367 00:20:51,217 --> 00:20:55,288 It's like it's completely like a second life, it really is. 368 00:20:55,355 --> 00:20:58,257 It's like a second life and 369 00:20:58,325 --> 00:21:01,961 yet you can't really believe it's happening but it is. 370 00:21:02,028 --> 00:21:04,096 It's just an addiction. 371 00:21:04,163 --> 00:21:08,100 And It's an overwhelmingly strong drug, 372 00:21:08,167 --> 00:21:09,569 which makes for an overwhelmingly, 373 00:21:09,636 --> 00:21:12,038 overwhelmingly strong addiction. 374 00:21:18,345 --> 00:21:20,279 >> Rick: That's it right there. 375 00:21:23,049 --> 00:21:25,051 It's a makeshift pipe. 376 00:21:26,786 --> 00:21:28,721 Crack cocaine. 377 00:21:28,788 --> 00:21:31,991 See the packets? 378 00:21:32,058 --> 00:21:33,493 Crack itself. 379 00:21:40,066 --> 00:21:41,934 It's definitely not an easy thing to do. 380 00:21:42,001 --> 00:21:49,509 I can only hope that I'll learn from it down the road. 381 00:21:55,114 --> 00:21:57,417 I know I learned from some other things, 382 00:21:57,484 --> 00:21:59,051 but this addiction is gonna kill 383 00:21:59,118 --> 00:22:02,221 and me the terrible thing is you don't think about your family, 384 00:22:02,288 --> 00:22:03,423 your friends, your career. 385 00:22:03,490 --> 00:22:07,326 All you think about is doing this shit. 386 00:22:41,127 --> 00:22:46,499 >> Rick: Um it's kind of a- 387 00:22:46,566 --> 00:22:49,969 this is really weird talking to a camera doing this. 388 00:22:50,036 --> 00:22:57,877 It's kind of a a euphoric almost hard to speak 389 00:22:57,944 --> 00:23:00,346 because of the rush type high. 390 00:23:02,582 --> 00:23:11,724 Um, I'd say within a matter of seconds, it um, for me, 391 00:23:11,791 --> 00:23:16,429 it becomes a almost, um, very sexual in a way. 392 00:23:16,496 --> 00:23:19,098 not in a good way by any means. 393 00:23:19,165 --> 00:23:24,771 Very raw, very animalistic, very lustful. 394 00:23:26,773 --> 00:23:30,242 I hope I'm being honest. 395 00:23:30,309 --> 00:23:32,044 Um, a 396 00:23:32,111 --> 00:23:34,647 very primeval sort of way. 397 00:23:34,714 --> 00:23:42,755 And at last in my experience with this rotten drug. 398 00:23:42,822 --> 00:23:50,963 How can something be so euphoric and so terrible. 399 00:23:51,030 --> 00:23:54,000 You do it even though you know it can kill you. 400 00:24:03,710 --> 00:24:06,312 Why? I don't understand why. 401 00:24:11,651 --> 00:24:13,152 >> Rick: Nine thirty. 402 00:24:15,354 --> 00:24:17,289 Nine o clock in the morning. 403 00:24:17,356 --> 00:24:18,491 I can't move my body. 404 00:24:18,558 --> 00:24:21,961 I can't even talk. 405 00:24:22,028 --> 00:24:24,731 I feel depressed as shit. 406 00:24:32,271 --> 00:24:33,105 This is the result. 407 00:24:33,172 --> 00:24:38,978 This is what you get. 408 00:24:39,045 --> 00:24:39,712 I guess I'm glad that I taped it. 409 00:24:39,779 --> 00:24:40,580 It's daytime. 410 00:24:40,647 --> 00:24:43,983 I'm supposed to be at work. 411 00:24:45,484 --> 00:24:49,522 I'm gonna try to finagle my way out now. 412 00:24:49,589 --> 00:24:51,190 >> Rick: The next day is always a nightmare 413 00:24:51,257 --> 00:24:54,827 because usually I have to go to work. 414 00:24:54,894 --> 00:24:56,195 Today there was just no way. 415 00:24:56,262 --> 00:24:58,798 That's five times this week I've done that. 416 00:25:02,602 --> 00:25:04,103 It's gotta stop. 417 00:25:09,175 --> 00:25:11,310 I argued with the wife on the phone. 418 00:25:11,377 --> 00:25:15,147 She's disappointed in me 'cause she knows. 419 00:25:15,214 --> 00:25:17,984 I know my boss John knows. 420 00:25:22,021 --> 00:25:24,156 And I don't get anything done. 421 00:25:24,223 --> 00:25:25,524 Nothing. 422 00:25:28,427 --> 00:25:29,729 >> Rick: Well... 423 00:25:32,498 --> 00:25:36,936 twenty-four hours later this is the result. 424 00:25:38,037 --> 00:25:41,240 Twenty fours hours later, um, 425 00:25:41,307 --> 00:25:46,045 it's debilitating. It's totally debilitating. 426 00:25:46,112 --> 00:25:50,983 You can't focus on anything other than 427 00:25:51,050 --> 00:25:55,955 total recuperation, total isolation, 428 00:25:57,056 --> 00:26:00,960 uh, fighting off the depression. 429 00:26:01,027 --> 00:26:04,030 Debilitating. It's totally debilitating. 430 00:26:09,035 --> 00:26:10,703 >> Rick: So this is pretty fucking typical. 431 00:26:10,770 --> 00:26:13,239 It's now forty-eight hours later. 432 00:26:14,273 --> 00:26:17,710 Yes, I'm fucked up. 433 00:26:17,777 --> 00:26:20,546 Couple of drinks at the bar is all it takes. 434 00:26:24,984 --> 00:26:26,986 >> Tami: Are you waiting on daddy to come in? 435 00:26:27,053 --> 00:26:28,320 >> Baby: Yeah. 436 00:26:28,387 --> 00:26:29,922 >> Tami: Is daddy's airplane gonna come in? 437 00:26:29,989 --> 00:26:31,490 >> Baby: Yeah. 438 00:26:37,997 --> 00:26:39,732 >> Tami: Did you miss daddy? 439 00:26:39,799 --> 00:26:41,000 >> Baby: I have cars. 440 00:26:41,067 --> 00:26:41,634 >> Rick: Yeah. 441 00:26:41,701 --> 00:26:43,202 Look in here. 442 00:26:49,008 --> 00:26:50,743 >> Friend: Today's Ricky's birthday. 443 00:26:50,810 --> 00:26:52,144 He's upstairs, ok. 444 00:26:52,211 --> 00:26:54,146 There's the old man right there. 445 00:26:54,213 --> 00:26:55,447 You know why they're up here? 446 00:26:55,514 --> 00:26:59,919 Because they're afraid of Barney. 447 00:26:59,986 --> 00:27:01,320 That's why. 448 00:27:01,387 --> 00:27:03,255 Are you glad you spent the money and brought Barney 449 00:27:03,322 --> 00:27:04,123 out here for your son? 450 00:27:04,190 --> 00:27:04,924 >> Rick: Oh yeah absolutely. 451 00:27:04,991 --> 00:27:06,325 >> Friend: Look! 452 00:27:06,392 --> 00:27:08,260 Yes, He's a courageous man just like his dad. 453 00:27:08,327 --> 00:27:11,563 A wimp. Hiding from a purple dinosaur. 454 00:27:11,630 --> 00:27:12,932 So what do you think about Barney and your s- 455 00:27:12,999 --> 00:27:16,235 >> Rick: Barney's down there and my son is hiding. 456 00:27:16,302 --> 00:27:18,070 >> Rick: There he goes. 457 00:27:18,137 --> 00:27:20,172 Say bye Barney. 458 00:27:20,239 --> 00:27:21,974 Say bye Barney. 459 00:27:22,041 --> 00:27:23,943 >> Rick Jr.: Bye Barney. 460 00:27:24,010 --> 00:27:24,643 >> Rick: All right. 461 00:27:24,711 --> 00:27:26,112 There goes Barney! 462 00:27:26,645 --> 00:27:27,980 >> TV Show Host: My first guest has done it all. 463 00:27:28,047 --> 00:27:31,751 He's been set on fire, wrestled a nine-foot alligator, 464 00:27:31,818 --> 00:27:33,285 and even boxed with me. 465 00:27:33,352 --> 00:27:36,155 Please welcome my good friend and senior correspondent 466 00:27:36,222 --> 00:27:38,557 for Inside Edition, Rick Kirkham. 467 00:27:42,261 --> 00:27:43,963 Take a look at this. 468 00:27:44,030 --> 00:27:46,365 >> Narrator: They call themselves adrenaline junkies. 469 00:27:46,432 --> 00:27:49,001 People who live life on the edge. 470 00:27:49,068 --> 00:27:52,772 Bungee cord jumping, swimming with sharks, skydiving. 471 00:27:52,839 --> 00:27:54,506 Some people are comfortable just getting 472 00:27:54,573 --> 00:27:56,308 up in the morning and going to work. 473 00:27:56,375 --> 00:27:57,710 But not these people. 474 00:27:57,777 --> 00:28:00,079 They thrive on finding the next thrill. 475 00:28:00,146 --> 00:28:02,915 >> TV Show Host: Yikes, set on fire, shot out of a cannon, 476 00:28:02,982 --> 00:28:05,084 so I'd have to say you're scariest moment was - 477 00:28:05,151 --> 00:28:06,118 boxing with me? 478 00:28:06,185 --> 00:28:08,187 >> Rick: Uh, y'know- 479 00:28:10,089 --> 00:28:12,191 >> TV Show Host: Oh oh oh oh oh oh! 480 00:28:19,098 --> 00:28:20,232 >> Rick: What? 481 00:28:20,299 --> 00:28:21,333 >> Tami: We have to go to the hospital. 482 00:28:21,400 --> 00:28:22,935 >> Rick: Are you serious? 483 00:28:23,002 --> 00:28:24,236 >> Tami: She said they're gonna put me on a monitor 484 00:28:24,303 --> 00:28:26,939 so they can monitor the contractions. 485 00:28:27,006 --> 00:28:29,241 >> Tami: Get me to the damn hospital and quit worrying 486 00:28:29,308 --> 00:28:31,010 about that damn camera. 487 00:28:31,077 --> 00:28:32,444 >> Tami: Daddy's gonna crash before we make it 488 00:28:32,511 --> 00:28:33,479 to the hospital. 489 00:28:33,545 --> 00:28:35,647 >> Rick: Oh we're not gonna crash. 490 00:28:35,714 --> 00:28:37,950 You said you wanted every bit of it on tape. 491 00:28:38,017 --> 00:28:40,019 >> Tami: I'm in labor and I have to hold the camera 492 00:28:40,086 --> 00:28:42,221 so daddy can drive so he can get it on videotape. 493 00:28:42,288 --> 00:28:44,857 >> Rick: I'm sorry but I'm a video junkie 494 00:28:44,924 --> 00:28:46,358 I videotaped everything. 495 00:28:46,425 --> 00:28:49,228 My god I videotaped your twat when Ricky was coming 496 00:28:49,295 --> 00:28:50,496 into the world, so you just better- 497 00:28:50,562 --> 00:28:51,463 >> Tami: Our kids are gonna be watching this 498 00:28:51,530 --> 00:28:52,631 so watch what you say. 499 00:28:52,698 --> 00:28:53,933 >> Rick: Well, I'll beep out that word 500 00:28:54,000 --> 00:28:55,935 but I videotaped Ricky coming into the world. 501 00:28:56,002 --> 00:28:58,771 I'm gonna damn well videotape Dusty. 502 00:28:58,838 --> 00:28:59,671 It'll be just as special. 503 00:28:59,738 --> 00:29:00,472 >> Tami: 504 00:29:00,539 --> 00:29:02,308 >> Rick: It's all right 505 00:29:04,343 --> 00:29:05,878 >> Tami: Oh my god. 506 00:29:05,945 --> 00:29:07,947 >> Rick: It's all right honey, it's all right. 507 00:29:08,014 --> 00:29:12,051 >> Tami: 508 00:29:12,118 --> 00:29:13,619 >> Rick: There's Dusty. 509 00:29:18,958 --> 00:29:20,893 There's little Dusty honey. 510 00:29:20,960 --> 00:29:22,361 >> Doctor: Do you wanna cut this? 511 00:29:22,428 --> 00:29:23,562 Wanna cut the cord? 512 00:29:23,629 --> 00:29:25,364 >> Rick: Yeah, I'm going to on this one. 513 00:29:28,935 --> 00:29:31,503 >> Ok mom, aim the camera. 514 00:29:31,570 --> 00:29:32,571 >> Rick: Where at? Right in between? 515 00:29:32,638 --> 00:29:35,107 >> Nurse: Yeah, that'll do it. 516 00:29:35,174 --> 00:29:35,975 Alright Dusty hang in there baby. 517 00:29:36,042 --> 00:29:37,910 This is just like a a movie. 518 00:29:37,977 --> 00:29:41,080 What was that comedy we saw with, uh, 519 00:29:41,147 --> 00:29:42,481 Robin Williams filming. 520 00:29:42,548 --> 00:29:44,050 Rick: You're awesome honey. 521 00:29:44,984 --> 00:29:45,985 >> Rick: Little Dusty. 522 00:29:46,052 --> 00:29:48,955 After all that trouble he's here. 523 00:29:52,058 --> 00:29:56,328 This is my second boy, the Kirkham boys. 524 00:29:56,395 --> 00:29:59,431 Tear up Dallas, alright. 525 00:29:59,498 --> 00:30:00,732 You did awesome. 526 00:30:00,799 --> 00:30:02,101 I love you. 527 00:30:03,169 --> 00:30:04,736 >> Rick: You wanna stand by the stork? 528 00:30:04,803 --> 00:30:05,371 >> Rick Jr.: Yeah. 529 00:30:05,437 --> 00:30:07,439 >> Rick: ooh. 530 00:30:07,506 --> 00:30:09,541 Is that for your baby brother Dusty? 531 00:30:09,608 --> 00:30:10,877 >> Rick: Time sure goes by fast. 532 00:30:10,943 --> 00:30:14,546 I mean it seems just like yesterday I was single 533 00:30:14,613 --> 00:30:19,952 in California, met Tami, 534 00:30:20,019 --> 00:30:25,457 got married, had Ricky, moved to New York, moved back to LA. 535 00:30:25,524 --> 00:30:26,592 Had Dusty. 536 00:30:27,293 --> 00:30:30,362 It's all in a flash. 537 00:30:30,429 --> 00:30:32,064 My grandmother was right. 538 00:30:32,131 --> 00:30:37,870 Life goes by way to fast not to enjoy it. 539 00:30:37,937 --> 00:30:41,974 Because while the days may seem long, over a period 540 00:30:42,041 --> 00:30:45,477 of time it's just a flash. 541 00:31:04,330 --> 00:31:05,697 >> Rick: Within just a couple hours 542 00:31:05,764 --> 00:31:08,000 of the storm here in downtown. 543 00:31:08,067 --> 00:31:10,269 Within just a couple of hours 544 00:31:10,336 --> 00:31:14,173 of Hurricane Opal ravaging itself through-ravaging. 545 00:31:14,240 --> 00:31:16,976 Three, two, one, wi- Fuck 546 00:31:17,043 --> 00:31:18,444 I got cars everywhere. 547 00:31:18,510 --> 00:31:21,180 Within just a couple of hours after Hurricane Opal came 548 00:31:21,247 --> 00:31:24,616 through downtown Pensacola Florida all was quiet. 549 00:31:24,683 --> 00:31:27,519 In fact there's really relatively little damage here 550 00:31:27,586 --> 00:31:31,223 but as you can see, after the calm- 551 00:31:31,290 --> 00:31:32,791 who knows fuckin' what I'm gonna say? 552 00:31:34,293 --> 00:31:38,430 >> Rick: It's the second of November 1995, 553 00:31:38,497 --> 00:31:44,403 about ten days ago in Dallas I finally hooked up with Marty. 554 00:31:44,470 --> 00:31:46,338 First thing I did was hit the bar with him and got 555 00:31:46,405 --> 00:31:48,807 so wasted, we hit three bars. 556 00:31:48,874 --> 00:31:51,643 The last thing I remember was being at a titty bar, 557 00:31:51,710 --> 00:31:55,414 my head laid back and a girl dancing over me. 558 00:31:55,481 --> 00:32:00,519 The next thing I knew I was, um, out looking for drugs. 559 00:32:02,521 --> 00:32:07,159 I actually spent two hundred dollars smoking crack cocaine 560 00:32:07,226 --> 00:32:08,394 all night long. 561 00:32:08,460 --> 00:32:13,065 Ended up hooking up with this gay guy, gay kid, 562 00:32:13,132 --> 00:32:15,968 who had the connection for cocaine. 563 00:32:16,035 --> 00:32:18,570 And, uh, smoked about two hundred dollars worth. 564 00:32:18,637 --> 00:32:24,643 And most embarrassing and most humiliating is I actually 565 00:32:24,710 --> 00:32:27,479 injected it twice. 566 00:32:27,546 --> 00:32:29,115 And, uh, 567 00:32:31,350 --> 00:32:32,584 now I carry with me again 568 00:32:32,651 --> 00:32:35,887 for the next six months the dreaded worry of AIDs. 569 00:32:35,954 --> 00:32:38,457 I can't believe how stupid that was, 570 00:32:38,524 --> 00:32:40,292 I just can't believe how stupid it was. 571 00:32:40,359 --> 00:32:44,296 When I think about my kids, I think about my little boys, 572 00:32:44,363 --> 00:32:49,001 my two little boys and I would take a risk like that. 573 00:32:49,068 --> 00:32:51,803 Anyway it's good that it blew up, 574 00:32:51,870 --> 00:32:58,110 because now I realize how dangerous substance abuse 575 00:32:58,177 --> 00:33:00,012 and alcoholism can be. 576 00:33:00,079 --> 00:33:01,480 I really do. 577 00:33:04,983 --> 00:33:08,220 Only now is it sinking in that my goals are 578 00:33:08,287 --> 00:33:11,390 to raise Dusty and Ricky. 579 00:33:14,393 --> 00:33:15,927 >> Rick: Here are the Christmas lights. 580 00:33:15,994 --> 00:33:17,296 Let's hear the oohs and aahs. 581 00:33:17,363 --> 00:33:18,164 >> Ricky Jr: Ooh ahh 582 00:33:18,230 --> 00:33:20,299 >> Tami: Christmas ninety-five. 583 00:33:20,366 --> 00:33:21,700 >> Ricky Jr: Christmas ninety-five. 584 00:33:21,767 --> 00:33:23,335 >> Tami: Two Kirkham boys 585 00:33:23,402 --> 00:33:24,936 >> Ricky Jr.: Kirkham boys. 586 00:33:25,003 --> 00:33:26,205 >> Tami: This is a every year thing. 587 00:33:26,272 --> 00:33:27,439 I remember this. 588 00:33:38,016 --> 00:33:39,251 >> Rick: Santa's a little busy right now 589 00:33:39,318 --> 00:33:42,954 >> Tami: I know I wanna get you getting ready 590 00:33:43,021 --> 00:33:44,756 >> Rick: Ho ho ho 591 00:33:44,823 --> 00:33:46,125 >> Tami: There's Santa 592 00:33:46,192 --> 00:33:48,060 >> Rick: Hello little Ricky, you been a good boy? 593 00:33:48,127 --> 00:33:49,061 >> Rick Jr.: Yes! 594 00:33:49,128 --> 00:33:50,429 >> Rick: You have? 595 00:33:53,031 --> 00:33:57,969 >> Rick: 596 00:33:58,036 --> 00:33:59,438 Daddy loves you. 597 00:34:06,011 --> 00:34:12,151 >> Rick: Aint nothing like a hot Jacuzzi, a good piece of joint, 598 00:34:12,218 --> 00:34:15,954 and some cold weather outside. 599 00:34:25,030 --> 00:34:27,766 >> Rick: This is my apartment in New York. 600 00:34:27,833 --> 00:34:32,138 I'll tell ya, New York can be a lot of fun. 601 00:34:33,239 --> 00:34:35,307 But wherever you live it's a shit hole. 602 00:34:35,374 --> 00:34:36,908 I guess I'm gonna be here six months. 603 00:34:36,975 --> 00:34:39,778 But I miss my wife and I miss my kids and I've only been away 604 00:34:39,845 --> 00:34:44,082 for two days and it's really really pissing me off. 605 00:34:46,252 --> 00:34:47,819 >> Rick Jr.: Let me get it, let me get it. 606 00:34:47,886 --> 00:34:50,356 I get it. 607 00:34:55,661 --> 00:34:56,428 >> Rick Jr.: Hello? 608 00:34:56,495 --> 00:34:58,096 >> Rick: Hi is this Ricky? 609 00:34:58,164 --> 00:34:59,231 >> Rick Jr.: Hi Daddy. 610 00:34:59,298 --> 00:35:01,933 >> Rick: Hi little man, how are you? 611 00:35:02,000 --> 00:35:03,235 >> Rick Jr.: Momma 612 00:35:04,102 --> 00:35:06,004 >> Rick: Momma has what? 613 00:35:07,072 --> 00:35:08,440 >> Rick Jr.: Momma 614 00:35:14,513 --> 00:35:16,014 Ok, whatever that meant. 615 00:35:19,017 --> 00:35:19,851 >> Tami: Are you through talking? 616 00:35:19,918 --> 00:35:22,321 >> Rick: No I wanna talk to him? 617 00:35:22,388 --> 00:35:23,555 >> Tami: Momma's turn? 618 00:35:23,622 --> 00:35:24,423 Hello? 619 00:35:24,490 --> 00:35:26,024 >> Rick: How you doing? 620 00:35:26,091 --> 00:35:29,961 Put that camera on, put it on you, 621 00:35:30,028 --> 00:35:31,963 How's my baby? 622 00:35:32,030 --> 00:35:33,064 >> Tami: Your baby's fine. 623 00:35:33,131 --> 00:35:34,433 >> Rick: I miss you. 624 00:35:34,500 --> 00:35:37,369 I miss you a lot. 625 00:35:37,436 --> 00:35:39,371 >> Tami: You just saying that cause the camera's on. 626 00:35:39,438 --> 00:35:41,373 >> Rick: No I'm not. 627 00:35:41,440 --> 00:35:43,074 Are you, are you getting yourself on that camera? 628 00:35:43,141 --> 00:35:44,476 >> Tami: I miss you too. 629 00:35:44,543 --> 00:35:47,045 >> Rick: Yea, are you getting yourself? 630 00:35:47,112 --> 00:35:48,079 >> Tami: Huh, yeah I'm getting myself. 631 00:35:48,146 --> 00:35:49,415 >> Rick: Yeah? >> Tami: Yeah. 632 00:35:49,481 --> 00:35:51,450 >> Rick: Well set the camera down for a second. 633 00:35:51,517 --> 00:35:52,351 >> Tami: Where am I gonna set it? 634 00:35:52,418 --> 00:35:54,186 >> Rick: Go into the kitchen. 635 00:35:54,253 --> 00:35:57,155 And set, open up the first cabinet at the top. 636 00:35:57,223 --> 00:35:59,591 And set the camera while it's recording, set it up, 637 00:35:59,658 --> 00:36:02,494 lean back on the stove bar. 638 00:36:02,561 --> 00:36:03,562 >> Tami: Okay. 639 00:36:03,629 --> 00:36:05,197 >> Rick: You looking right at it? 640 00:36:05,264 --> 00:36:06,432 >> Tami: Yeah. 641 00:36:06,498 --> 00:36:08,867 >> Rick: Can I talk to you about a few things? 642 00:36:12,170 --> 00:36:14,105 >> Tami: Okay. 643 00:36:14,172 --> 00:36:17,108 >> Rick: Listen, I love you. 644 00:36:17,175 --> 00:36:20,379 And I know it's a long distance and a long period 645 00:36:20,446 --> 00:36:23,014 of time that I'm away. 646 00:36:23,081 --> 00:36:25,917 But while we have a chance to actually record it for 647 00:36:25,984 --> 00:36:29,821 history I wanna tell you that you're a super woman, 648 00:36:29,888 --> 00:36:35,093 a super wife, I love you dearly, and I think about you every day. 649 00:36:35,160 --> 00:36:37,629 >> Tami: You know, I know you're being sincere 650 00:36:37,696 --> 00:36:39,898 but it's kind of hard for me to take you serious 651 00:36:39,965 --> 00:36:42,133 when I know the videotapes are rolling. 652 00:36:42,200 --> 00:36:43,569 >> Rick: I know. 653 00:36:43,635 --> 00:36:45,837 But it's just something I wanted to have, is to to be able 654 00:36:45,904 --> 00:36:48,540 to tell you that I love you and I love our kids. 655 00:36:48,607 --> 00:36:50,542 And I know my priorities in life and I'm doing 656 00:36:50,609 --> 00:36:54,346 so much better, and I miss you a lot. 657 00:36:54,413 --> 00:36:57,749 And, and I can hardly wait to get home. 658 00:36:57,816 --> 00:37:00,352 >> Tami: Ok, I will. 659 00:37:00,419 --> 00:37:01,820 Bye. 660 00:37:01,887 --> 00:37:08,860 Oh my goodness gracious- that man and his video cameras! 661 00:37:08,927 --> 00:37:13,164 I tell ya, the one thing that's gonna drive me insane, 662 00:37:13,231 --> 00:37:14,966 put me in the loony tune home, 663 00:37:15,033 --> 00:37:19,070 I know when I'm 50 years old I'm gonna love this. 664 00:37:19,137 --> 00:37:20,506 Rick will be dead and gone by then you know - 665 00:37:20,572 --> 00:37:24,042 but I'll be sitting there and watching them by myself. 666 00:37:24,109 --> 00:37:26,144 Joking honey, I'm just joking. 667 00:37:26,211 --> 00:37:28,414 I love ya, I love ya! 668 00:37:36,254 --> 00:37:38,089 >> Rick: Getting off the phone with Tami is now leading me 669 00:37:38,156 --> 00:37:42,193 to go do something because I'm so frustrating and I'm 670 00:37:42,260 --> 00:37:45,030 so far away I can't do anything about it. 671 00:37:47,032 --> 00:37:50,168 So I'm gonna go get some blow and smoke some blow. 672 00:37:53,071 --> 00:37:54,873 It's a crazy evening. 673 00:37:56,274 --> 00:38:00,045 Third of January, 1996. 674 00:38:01,547 --> 00:38:04,383 Here in my hell hole. 675 00:38:09,388 --> 00:38:11,823 >> Rick: Ahh, well that's about all it takes. 676 00:38:11,890 --> 00:38:13,124 A little trip down the old block 677 00:38:13,191 --> 00:38:18,029 when you live next to the projects. 678 00:38:18,096 --> 00:38:19,531 I don't know what sent me off this time. 679 00:38:19,598 --> 00:38:21,232 I was nice and calm until I talked to Tami. 680 00:38:21,299 --> 00:38:24,536 Here we go. 681 00:38:24,603 --> 00:38:28,907 Take these, which I doubt you've ever seen before. 682 00:38:31,377 --> 00:38:37,916 Pour one of them in there, it's ready to go. 683 00:39:07,446 --> 00:39:17,523 >> Rick: 684 00:39:17,523 --> 00:39:25,397 >> Rick: 685 00:39:25,464 --> 00:39:30,469 >> Tami: Today is January twenty-second. 686 00:39:30,536 --> 00:39:35,073 Dusty rolled over from his back to his stomach. 687 00:39:35,140 --> 00:39:36,808 >> Rick: Last night I had a major breakdown. 688 00:39:36,875 --> 00:39:40,111 Talked to the doctor cried and cried. 689 00:39:40,178 --> 00:39:43,915 Lot of childhood memories are coming back. 690 00:39:43,982 --> 00:39:45,417 It's very painful. 691 00:39:45,484 --> 00:39:49,621 It's not memories it's feelings. 692 00:39:49,688 --> 00:39:50,922 Feelings. 693 00:39:50,989 --> 00:39:54,926 >> Tami: And also Ricky, on the seventeen, January 694 00:39:54,993 --> 00:39:58,196 woke up using the potty all by himself. 695 00:39:58,263 --> 00:40:03,735 >> Rick: I don't know what got into me, but the last couple 696 00:40:03,802 --> 00:40:07,606 of days of smoking that cocaine, waking up at two 697 00:40:07,673 --> 00:40:10,842 in the afternoon, pissed me off. 698 00:40:10,909 --> 00:40:17,248 >> Tami: And tomorrow will be January twenty-third. 699 00:40:17,315 --> 00:40:19,851 Guess what that is? 700 00:40:19,918 --> 00:40:24,055 Rick and Tami will have made it to three years. 701 00:40:24,122 --> 00:40:26,925 Phew. Seems like we been married forever. 702 00:40:26,992 --> 00:40:29,961 I don't know what these people do 703 00:40:30,028 --> 00:40:34,733 when they say 'oh we've been married thirty five years' 704 00:40:34,800 --> 00:40:39,170 that's a scary thought. 705 00:40:39,237 --> 00:40:42,173 Very scary thought, but it'll happen. 706 00:40:42,240 --> 00:40:43,975 It's gonna happen. 707 00:40:44,042 --> 00:40:47,979 We love each other too much. 708 00:40:48,046 --> 00:40:50,315 >> Rick: I can't be fucking around. 709 00:40:52,450 --> 00:40:54,152 I got two kids. 710 00:40:55,153 --> 00:40:55,987 Two great little boys. 711 00:40:56,054 --> 00:40:59,090 And I plan to have more. 712 00:40:59,157 --> 00:41:01,159 And I got an incredible wife. 713 00:41:01,226 --> 00:41:03,294 >> Tami: Very proud of my boys. 714 00:41:03,361 --> 00:41:06,264 Very very very proud. 715 00:41:06,331 --> 00:41:07,633 All three of them. 716 00:41:07,699 --> 00:41:11,970 That includes Rick, big Rick, little Ricky, and Dusty. 717 00:41:12,037 --> 00:41:17,909 >> Rick: This is what for seven years now I've done basically 718 00:41:17,976 --> 00:41:20,646 at least three nights a week if not more. 719 00:41:29,154 --> 00:41:30,889 >> Tami: Guess that's it for the day. 720 00:41:30,956 --> 00:41:34,092 Maybe. We'll see ya soon. 721 00:41:41,066 --> 00:41:42,601 Adios, bye. 722 00:42:38,056 --> 00:42:39,457 >> Rick: Yep, another fine day. 723 00:42:39,524 --> 00:42:41,693 As you can see, the uh crew can't get the door open here 724 00:42:41,760 --> 00:42:42,861 to the van. 725 00:42:42,928 --> 00:42:44,495 People think these adventures are easy. 726 00:42:44,562 --> 00:42:45,997 Everything goes wrong. 727 00:42:46,064 --> 00:42:48,466 >> Rick: I ain't sayin shit until we're fucking ready. 728 00:42:48,533 --> 00:42:49,668 I'm tired of screaming. 729 00:43:10,488 --> 00:43:13,324 >> Rick: Here it is March 8, 1996. 730 00:43:13,391 --> 00:43:15,493 We're doing the Inside Adventure at Daytona Beach. 731 00:43:15,560 --> 00:43:17,729 Today's the last day of the shoot. 732 00:43:17,796 --> 00:43:19,731 And it's kind of a sad day in a way 733 00:43:19,798 --> 00:43:21,232 but in a way it's kind of a happy day. 734 00:43:21,299 --> 00:43:23,935 This is our last inside adventure to be 735 00:43:24,002 --> 00:43:25,403 out in the field shooting. 736 00:43:25,470 --> 00:43:28,840 The main thing is, is that I've had a blast, I've learned a lot. 737 00:43:28,907 --> 00:43:32,343 And what comes up in the future who knows. 738 00:43:32,410 --> 00:43:35,714 I says itis adventure quest from now on. 739 00:43:38,016 --> 00:43:39,284 >> Rick: Here we are. 740 00:43:39,350 --> 00:43:41,953 Daddy drove 300 miles to the Grand Canyon last night. 741 00:43:42,020 --> 00:43:44,089 >> Ricky Jr.: Daddy! 742 00:43:45,423 --> 00:43:49,060 >> Rick: Boy are we enjoying the Grand Canyon or what? 743 00:43:49,127 --> 00:43:51,529 >> Tami: Sleepy. 744 00:43:51,596 --> 00:43:52,230 >> Rick: Are you ready? 745 00:43:52,297 --> 00:43:53,498 >> Tami: Yes. 746 00:43:58,636 --> 00:43:59,805 >> Rick: I know. 747 00:43:59,871 --> 00:44:02,540 I wanna get my earplugs, and something to kind 748 00:44:02,607 --> 00:44:05,443 of kill the pain, and something that'll knock you 749 00:44:05,510 --> 00:44:06,945 out for about fourteen hours- 750 00:44:07,012 --> 00:44:08,079 >> Ricky Jr.: I want candy. 751 00:44:08,146 --> 00:44:09,948 >> Rick: And you, some candy. 752 00:44:10,015 --> 00:44:13,752 >> Rick: We spent all of fifteen minutes at the Grand Canyon today. 753 00:44:17,022 --> 00:44:18,656 >> Tami: That's all you need to see it 754 00:44:18,724 --> 00:44:22,193 >> Rick: Nag nag nag nag nag 755 00:44:22,260 --> 00:44:25,396 >> Tami: You're dad, I swear we've had enough of each other. 756 00:44:25,463 --> 00:44:27,465 It's time to split. 757 00:44:27,532 --> 00:44:29,868 Break time. 758 00:44:31,036 --> 00:44:33,872 >> Rick: Does that mean we can date? 759 00:44:36,141 --> 00:44:37,275 >> Tami: What? 760 00:44:37,342 --> 00:44:38,276 >> Rick: Does that mean we can date around? 761 00:44:38,343 --> 00:44:40,011 >> Tami: Sure. 762 00:44:40,078 --> 00:44:42,313 >> Rick: Does that mean we can sleep around? 763 00:44:42,380 --> 00:44:43,982 >> Tami: Sure. 764 00:44:44,049 --> 00:44:45,516 >> Rick: Will you give me crap? 765 00:44:45,583 --> 00:44:48,987 >> Tami: No cause I can do it too, shit. 766 00:44:52,057 --> 00:44:53,091 >> Rick: You would too, 767 00:44:53,158 --> 00:44:54,192 >> Tami: So would you 768 00:44:54,259 --> 00:44:56,394 >> Rick: I'd lie about it and say I did 769 00:44:56,461 --> 00:44:57,662 >> Tami: Bull. 770 00:44:59,097 --> 00:45:00,498 >> Rick: Listen to your mother. 771 00:45:00,565 --> 00:45:02,233 This is your mother talking, someday you will see this tape. 772 00:45:02,300 --> 00:45:05,136 You know it's momma. 773 00:45:05,203 --> 00:45:06,337 >> Tami: What? 774 00:45:06,404 --> 00:45:07,638 What do you mean 'you know it's momma'? 775 00:45:07,705 --> 00:45:09,875 >> Rick: She's not committed to Daddy. 776 00:45:11,376 --> 00:45:14,612 >> Tami: You're the one- No, I'm committed to my kids. 777 00:45:16,014 --> 00:45:18,349 >> Rick: May first, 1996. 778 00:45:18,416 --> 00:45:22,954 Then I got back, I got the letter from Inside. 779 00:45:23,021 --> 00:45:27,158 Dated the sixteenth, right after that weekend. 780 00:45:27,225 --> 00:45:29,460 'Terminated because of non-diligent 781 00:45:29,527 --> 00:45:30,762 and unfaithful service.' 782 00:45:30,829 --> 00:45:35,533 That's the part that gets me. 783 00:45:37,402 --> 00:45:38,837 >> Voicemail: Hey Rick, it's Kip. 784 00:45:38,904 --> 00:45:44,776 Um, yo uh y'know all I can tell you, y'know, is call me ASAP. 785 00:45:44,843 --> 00:45:45,977 Because, y'know, it can't go 786 00:45:46,044 --> 00:45:47,045 down like this. 787 00:45:47,112 --> 00:45:48,646 You owe me a lot of money. 788 00:45:48,713 --> 00:45:50,882 And I want it y'know, I need it. 789 00:45:50,949 --> 00:45:54,986 I can't afford to, uh, let this slip by. Alright? 790 00:45:55,053 --> 00:45:56,287 >> Rick: You shouldn't have destroyed all my stuff. 791 00:45:56,354 --> 00:45:58,689 >> Voicemail: I expect to hear from you by Monday. 792 00:45:58,756 --> 00:46:00,025 Good bye. 793 00:46:03,962 --> 00:46:04,963 >> Voicemail: This is Blockbuster video 794 00:46:05,030 --> 00:46:06,631 at Coit and Legacy. 795 00:46:06,697 --> 00:46:08,699 Just calling to let you know you have two movies still checked out under- 796 00:46:10,535 --> 00:46:12,203 >> Rick: At least I'm getting my office fixed 797 00:46:12,270 --> 00:46:14,005 up the way I want it. 798 00:46:14,072 --> 00:46:19,277 The good thing is, I'm no longer employed with Inside Edition. 799 00:46:19,344 --> 00:46:20,478 That's a good thing? 800 00:46:20,545 --> 00:46:24,215 I wouldn't have said that five years ago. 801 00:46:24,282 --> 00:46:26,717 And I'm a lot more mentally healthy now. 802 00:46:26,784 --> 00:46:27,986 Damn 803 00:46:28,987 --> 00:46:29,921 >> Voicemail: Hey Rick, this is Kip, uh, 804 00:46:29,988 --> 00:46:32,723 checking in with you man. 805 00:46:32,790 --> 00:46:35,726 Uh, this is ridiculous that, uh, I'm getting things 806 00:46:35,793 --> 00:46:37,929 in the mail saying you 807 00:46:37,996 --> 00:46:40,331 haven't paid the bills that I gave you 808 00:46:40,398 --> 00:46:42,934 at the end you said you were gonna take care of it. 809 00:46:43,001 --> 00:46:45,803 And y'know you were supposed to send me a check. 810 00:46:45,871 --> 00:46:48,006 I put down all that money for you.. 811 00:46:50,375 --> 00:46:51,409 >> Rick: Tensions are high 812 00:46:51,476 --> 00:46:54,145 because I'm not used to being home. 813 00:46:54,212 --> 00:46:57,949 Been home for almost three months now. 814 00:46:58,016 --> 00:47:00,051 It's driving Tami crazy because I don't know how to take care 815 00:47:00,118 --> 00:47:01,819 of the kids that well. 816 00:47:12,197 --> 00:47:14,866 Drug problems on my part. 817 00:47:14,933 --> 00:47:21,006 And it's killing her, and it's really killing me. 818 00:47:24,142 --> 00:47:29,080 I love Tami a lot and I love these boys. 819 00:47:29,147 --> 00:47:30,781 I love these boys. 820 00:47:30,848 --> 00:47:34,785 Look at little Dusty. 821 00:47:34,852 --> 00:47:37,956 Look at little Dusty only ten months. 822 00:47:38,023 --> 00:47:40,058 Yeah, Little Dusty only ten months old. 823 00:47:40,125 --> 00:47:43,094 And he got a little boo boo from where Ricky hit him right there. 824 00:47:43,161 --> 00:47:45,997 You gonna get Ricky back? 825 00:47:46,064 --> 00:47:48,099 You gonna get Ricky the old one two? 826 00:47:48,166 --> 00:47:55,306 Say pow pow pow pow pow, yeah say ooh aah take that Ricky. 827 00:47:55,373 --> 00:48:00,912 Boom bom bom bomm are you gonna get him, hmm? 828 00:48:00,979 --> 00:48:04,482 >> Rick: Here it is, the end of June 96. 829 00:48:04,549 --> 00:48:08,987 Been living at home in Dallas for god knows how long... 830 00:48:09,054 --> 00:48:14,025 What, four months. 831 00:48:14,092 --> 00:48:17,728 And I'm off to get drugs. 832 00:48:17,795 --> 00:48:19,931 Tami and I had a fight. 833 00:48:19,998 --> 00:48:22,633 She closed my bank account, she got, 834 00:48:22,700 --> 00:48:24,835 she's hidden all my credit cards. 835 00:48:24,902 --> 00:48:28,406 I know she means well, but it's left me feeling 836 00:48:28,473 --> 00:48:31,943 like a worthless piece of shit. 837 00:48:32,010 --> 00:48:33,111 Instead of building me up 838 00:48:33,178 --> 00:48:38,449 and saying hey this is day number one, 839 00:48:38,516 --> 00:48:43,154 I'm off to smoke crack. 840 00:48:43,221 --> 00:48:46,224 38 years old, I can't believe I'm doing this. 841 00:48:47,025 --> 00:48:51,262 >> Tami: And you'll get to see daddy again, I promise, Okay. 842 00:48:51,329 --> 00:48:52,763 You will. 843 00:48:52,830 --> 00:48:54,465 >> Rick: Tell tell Ricky really what you're doing here, momma. 844 00:48:54,532 --> 00:48:55,967 Tell Ricky what you're doing. 845 00:48:56,034 --> 00:48:57,268 >> Tami: Will you stop? 846 00:48:57,335 --> 00:48:58,536 >> Rick: No I want this on tape for him. 847 00:48:58,603 --> 00:48:59,770 >> Tami: No I'm not talking. 848 00:48:59,837 --> 00:49:00,972 >> Rick: What's wrong honey? 849 00:49:01,039 --> 00:49:02,873 Let me tell you what's going on Ricky. 850 00:49:02,940 --> 00:49:04,175 >> Tami: No. >> Rick: Why? 851 00:49:04,242 --> 00:49:05,410 >> Tami: Don't you dare! >> Rick: Why? 852 00:49:05,476 --> 00:49:06,978 You're- Because you are not telling the truth. 853 00:49:07,045 --> 00:49:08,579 >> Rick: You are not taking my children away from me 854 00:49:08,646 --> 00:49:11,949 after conning me with my father and with my best friend 855 00:49:12,017 --> 00:49:13,184 >> Tami: You are full of it 856 00:49:13,251 --> 00:49:15,186 >> Rick: to take me for every dime I have 857 00:49:15,253 --> 00:49:17,888 >> Tami: Ricky, come here. 858 00:49:17,955 --> 00:49:18,656 Don't listen to daddy. 859 00:49:18,723 --> 00:49:20,158 Don't listen to daddy 860 00:49:20,225 --> 00:49:23,995 >> Rick: Ricky, you're momma is trying to send daddy to jail. 861 00:49:24,062 --> 00:49:25,030 >> Rick Jr.: I have a boogie. 862 00:49:25,096 --> 00:49:25,730 >> Tami: I know you have a boogie. 863 00:49:25,796 --> 00:49:26,964 Let's get it out. 864 00:49:27,032 --> 00:49:30,168 >> Rick: You're momma is sending your dad away. 865 00:49:31,569 --> 00:49:33,004 And that's the truth and you should know it 866 00:49:33,071 --> 00:49:34,072 and I want him to know it someday. 867 00:49:34,139 --> 00:49:35,173 >> Tami: Okay let, let me tell it. 868 00:49:35,240 --> 00:49:36,941 >> Rick: Go ahead. 869 00:49:39,077 --> 00:49:41,212 >> Tami: Your mom has been here through thick and thin. 870 00:49:41,279 --> 00:49:42,713 Your dad is a crackhead. 871 00:49:42,780 --> 00:49:46,184 And he has been gone all night and sleeping all day. 872 00:49:46,251 --> 00:49:49,220 What are the police here now? 873 00:49:49,287 --> 00:49:51,022 >> Rick: Maybe they are? 874 00:49:51,089 --> 00:49:53,024 >> Tami: So I'm trying to protect us. 875 00:49:53,091 --> 00:49:55,026 >> Rick: Now listen I love you and I love you. 876 00:49:55,093 --> 00:49:56,261 >> Tami: Daddy does love you 877 00:49:56,327 --> 00:49:58,963 and momma would never say that he didn't. 878 00:50:00,998 --> 00:50:03,434 >> Rick: I love you but the police are gonna take me away 879 00:50:03,501 --> 00:50:06,837 because daddy has a drug problem. 880 00:50:06,904 --> 00:50:10,141 Ok? You're gonna go live with papa and you're not gonna get 881 00:50:10,208 --> 00:50:11,942 to see me and it's not because I don't love you. 882 00:50:12,009 --> 00:50:13,611 >> Tami: Will you stop rick? 883 00:50:13,678 --> 00:50:16,214 Rick, the videotape is not going to cover up what you have done. 884 00:50:16,281 --> 00:50:18,149 >> Rick: You stay out of the office Tami. 885 00:50:18,216 --> 00:50:19,050 >> Tami: What's wrong? 886 00:50:19,117 --> 00:50:20,285 >> Rick: The- that tape is mine. 887 00:50:20,351 --> 00:50:22,253 >> Tami: Don't forget the baby is in my hand. 888 00:50:22,320 --> 00:50:24,789 The baby is in my hand! 889 00:50:26,023 --> 00:50:27,558 >> Rick: You stay out of my office. 890 00:50:27,625 --> 00:50:31,062 You've already stolen enough things of mine. 891 00:50:31,129 --> 00:50:31,962 >> Rick Jr.: Daddy? 892 00:50:32,029 --> 00:50:33,464 >> Rick: It's ok little guy. 893 00:50:33,531 --> 00:50:37,235 It's ok. Let me tell ya, child support comes from what I earn. 894 00:50:37,302 --> 00:50:39,036 If you put me in jail I don't earn. 895 00:50:39,104 --> 00:50:40,738 Do you understand that? 896 00:50:40,805 --> 00:50:41,839 Do you want these kids to grow 897 00:50:41,906 --> 00:50:43,074 up on a goddamn mobile home in Terrell? 898 00:50:43,141 --> 00:50:44,442 >> Tami: Sshh! 899 00:50:44,509 --> 00:50:47,978 >> Rick: Th- then use your brains. 900 00:50:48,045 --> 00:50:49,280 Use your brains. 901 00:50:49,347 --> 00:50:50,548 >> Tami: what? 902 00:50:53,050 --> 00:50:54,952 I didn't interrupt he threw the damn phone 903 00:50:55,019 --> 00:50:56,854 and don't talk to me like that. 904 00:50:56,921 --> 00:50:58,989 He threw the phone down on the floor. 905 00:50:59,056 --> 00:51:00,325 >> Rick: Let me talk to her. 906 00:51:00,391 --> 00:51:02,993 Babette, in the conversation she had with her sister, 907 00:51:03,060 --> 00:51:05,663 her sister convinced her that you and I were having a fling 908 00:51:05,730 --> 00:51:07,365 and that you were on my side. 909 00:51:07,432 --> 00:51:08,233 >> Tami: Oh bull. 910 00:51:08,299 --> 00:51:08,999 >> Rick: I've got the tape. 911 00:51:09,066 --> 00:51:10,501 I got it in my pocket. 912 00:51:10,568 --> 00:51:12,203 That's what I fought her to get to before she could get to it. 913 00:51:12,270 --> 00:51:13,304 >> Rick: Tami don't go 914 00:51:13,371 --> 00:51:16,474 in my office I'm telling you right now. 915 00:51:16,541 --> 00:51:18,309 >> Tami: I wasn't in the first place. 916 00:51:18,376 --> 00:51:19,310 What you gonna follow me around? 917 00:51:19,377 --> 00:51:20,611 You scared? 918 00:51:20,678 --> 00:51:22,413 >> Rick: No you're gonna stay out of my damn office 919 00:51:22,480 --> 00:51:23,614 >> Tami: Why you cursing? 920 00:51:23,681 --> 00:51:25,216 >> Rick: You're going in the other room 921 00:51:25,283 --> 00:51:26,184 >> Tami: You're not gonna be alone with my kids 922 00:51:26,251 --> 00:51:27,985 so you can tell them your lies 923 00:51:28,052 --> 00:51:29,920 >> Rick: I'm not gonna be alone with your kids. 924 00:51:29,987 --> 00:51:30,988 Honey I- 925 00:51:31,055 --> 00:51:32,123 >> Tami: So you can sit there 926 00:51:32,190 --> 00:51:33,358 and tell them what you're telling me. 927 00:51:33,424 --> 00:51:34,692 >> Rick: Let me- let me tell you something. 928 00:51:34,759 --> 00:51:35,993 When I heard on that fucking recorder what you said, 929 00:51:36,060 --> 00:51:38,229 you don't think that hurt me? 930 00:51:38,296 --> 00:51:39,630 You don't think that destroyed me? 931 00:51:39,697 --> 00:51:41,632 That destroyed my life. 932 00:51:41,699 --> 00:51:43,067 >> Tami: You destroyed your own life. 933 00:51:43,134 --> 00:51:44,435 >> Rick: How could you think I'd molest one of my kids? 934 00:51:44,502 --> 00:51:45,470 >> Rick: Here they come. 935 00:51:45,536 --> 00:51:46,304 >> Tami: You gonna videotape this? 936 00:51:46,371 --> 00:51:48,406 >> Rick: Yeah, absolutely. 937 00:51:50,074 --> 00:51:51,008 >> Police officer: Your alarm went off. 938 00:51:51,075 --> 00:51:51,742 >> Rick: Yes it did. 939 00:51:51,809 --> 00:51:54,044 Come on in officer. 940 00:51:54,111 --> 00:51:55,012 >> Police officer: Everything ok? 941 00:51:55,079 --> 00:51:55,746 >> Rick: Uh, not exactly. 942 00:51:55,813 --> 00:51:56,647 Please step inside sir. 943 00:51:56,714 --> 00:51:57,982 I'm Rick Kirkham. 944 00:51:58,048 --> 00:52:00,518 We're having a a problem, a family dispute here, 945 00:52:00,585 --> 00:52:02,019 basically over a phone conversation. 946 00:52:02,086 --> 00:52:04,155 >> Tami: I pushed the button so let me talk. 947 00:52:04,222 --> 00:52:05,923 >> Police officer: Mr. Kirkham I'll be glad to talk to you 948 00:52:05,990 --> 00:52:07,124 when I'm through with her. 949 00:52:07,192 --> 00:52:09,494 >> Rick: That's fine, I have no problem. 950 00:52:13,498 --> 00:52:14,532 >> Rick Jr.: Daddy? 951 00:52:14,599 --> 00:52:16,534 >> Rick: Come here, Listen to me, 952 00:52:16,601 --> 00:52:20,137 I love you and you know I'll come see you in a few days ok. 953 00:52:20,205 --> 00:52:21,772 Now mama's gonna say a lot of mean things 954 00:52:21,839 --> 00:52:25,476 but they're not true alright. 955 00:52:25,543 --> 00:52:26,844 Daddy loves ya and he always loves ya. 956 00:52:26,911 --> 00:52:30,748 Remember we're buddies, okay? 957 00:52:38,356 --> 00:52:41,158 >> Rick: You tell papa I'll see him later. 958 00:52:45,530 --> 00:52:51,001 >> Rick: God, what is she doing? 959 00:52:51,068 --> 00:52:53,804 My two little miracles were taken away 960 00:52:53,871 --> 00:52:57,575 from me with police force. 961 00:53:02,079 --> 00:53:04,081 My two little miracles. 962 00:53:29,507 --> 00:53:31,008 The End. 963 00:53:39,116 --> 00:53:46,056 >> Rick: At what point, can a person really, sanely, 964 00:53:46,123 --> 00:53:50,227 consider themselves perhaps a little insane. 965 00:53:52,297 --> 00:53:55,833 They've lost a little touch with reality. 966 00:53:59,103 --> 00:54:02,106 I don't know. 967 00:54:05,443 --> 00:54:06,644 >> Rick: Yeah. 968 00:54:08,112 --> 00:54:10,080 I'm still sleep. 969 00:54:10,147 --> 00:54:11,982 >> Tami: I was gonna tell ya, they're gonna say 970 00:54:12,049 --> 00:54:15,085 that I wrongly accused you. 971 00:54:15,152 --> 00:54:16,687 >> Rick: Really? 972 00:54:16,754 --> 00:54:17,855 >> Rick: I was just talking about that. 973 00:54:17,922 --> 00:54:19,156 >> Tami: I was tossing and turning. 974 00:54:19,223 --> 00:54:20,057 >> Rick: Huh. 975 00:54:20,124 --> 00:54:21,125 >> Tami: Was in there tossing 976 00:54:21,191 --> 00:54:22,860 and turning, tossing and turning. 977 00:54:24,061 --> 00:54:26,964 >> Rick: Come sit down if you want to. 978 00:54:27,031 --> 00:54:30,134 See, now we can both be on . 979 00:54:32,036 --> 00:54:34,772 >> Tami: Life fucking sucks. 980 00:54:38,343 --> 00:54:41,312 >> Rick: I believe I was speaking 981 00:54:41,379 --> 00:54:43,314 about that a minute ago. 982 00:54:43,381 --> 00:54:45,983 How just being good to Tami. 983 00:54:46,050 --> 00:54:47,718 She's such a strong lady. 984 00:54:47,785 --> 00:54:49,987 I'm very proud of you. 985 00:54:50,054 --> 00:54:51,789 This is the lowest we're gonna go, okay. 986 00:54:51,856 --> 00:54:55,292 Ain't gonna be no lower than this. 987 00:54:55,360 --> 00:54:58,128 Remember, in sickness and in health 988 00:54:58,195 --> 00:55:00,130 in good times and bad times. 989 00:55:00,197 --> 00:55:01,932 >> Tami: Trust me I've been through that 990 00:55:01,999 --> 00:55:04,635 in my head a million times. 991 00:55:04,702 --> 00:55:06,003 >> Rick: Do you really love me? 992 00:55:06,070 --> 00:55:08,939 >> Tami: Yes, why? 993 00:55:09,006 --> 00:55:10,207 >> Rick: Even if we lost this house? 994 00:55:10,274 --> 00:55:11,842 And lost everything? 995 00:55:11,909 --> 00:55:12,910 >> Tami: Yes. 996 00:55:12,977 --> 00:55:14,379 >> Rick: And we're forced to live 997 00:55:14,445 --> 00:55:18,048 in a mobile home beside your parents, would you love me? 998 00:55:18,115 --> 00:55:19,216 >> Tami: Yes I'd love you. 999 00:55:19,283 --> 00:55:23,053 I wouldn't be happy but I'd love you. 1000 00:55:23,120 --> 00:55:26,123 >> Rick: That's all I need to know, baby. 1001 00:55:26,190 --> 00:55:27,958 All I need to know. 1002 00:55:28,025 --> 00:55:30,961 My wife, I think ill keep her. 1003 00:55:31,028 --> 00:55:35,065 One in a million times a man finds a woman 1004 00:55:35,132 --> 00:55:36,767 and becomes love at first sight. 1005 00:55:36,834 --> 00:55:43,741 And that's exactly what it was, love at first sight. 1006 00:55:43,808 --> 00:55:45,175 >> Rick: Excuse me, do you have an invitation? 1007 00:55:45,242 --> 00:55:46,977 >> Tami: I didn't know you were standing there. 1008 00:55:47,044 --> 00:55:49,346 >> Rick: This is an invitation only party. 1009 00:55:49,414 --> 00:55:50,981 Nah, sorry you don't have an invitation? 1010 00:55:51,048 --> 00:55:52,182 This is for Dusty's birthday, 1011 00:55:52,249 --> 00:55:53,551 his first birthday you can't come. 1012 00:55:53,618 --> 00:55:55,553 No invitation, you aint comin' in. 1013 00:55:55,620 --> 00:55:56,454 No 1014 00:55:56,521 --> 00:55:57,187 >> Tami: Blow out the candle. 1015 00:55:57,254 --> 00:55:57,955 You gonna blow? 1016 00:55:58,022 --> 00:55:58,689 >> Rick Jr.: Yeah. 1017 00:55:58,756 --> 00:55:59,890 >> Tami: Ok, Dusty. 1018 00:55:59,957 --> 00:56:00,891 >> Tami: All right! 1019 00:56:02,159 --> 00:56:05,062 >> Tami: What's the matter? 1020 00:56:05,129 --> 00:56:09,166 It's ok, It's too overwhelming. 1021 00:56:09,233 --> 00:56:10,901 >> Rick: Yummy, yummy. 1022 00:56:10,968 --> 00:56:12,970 >> Rick: Did ya have a good time at Dusty's first birthday? 1023 00:56:13,037 --> 00:56:14,004 >> Tami: Well of course I did 1024 00:56:14,071 --> 00:56:16,941 >> Rick: I did too. 1025 00:56:22,279 --> 00:56:24,515 >> Tami: First birthday you weren't hungover at. 1026 00:56:24,582 --> 00:56:26,316 >> Rick: Oh haha hah. 1027 00:56:26,383 --> 00:56:27,918 Ha hah hah ha 1028 00:56:27,985 --> 00:56:30,287 >> Rick: What a good life it's turning out to be. 1029 00:56:30,354 --> 00:56:31,822 Tami and I are getting along. 1030 00:56:31,889 --> 00:56:35,493 We're juggling bills but we're gonna make it. 1031 00:56:39,997 --> 00:56:42,833 And, the back yard is getting cleaned up. 1032 00:56:42,900 --> 00:56:47,037 I see you, I see you. 1033 00:56:47,104 --> 00:56:48,439 Anyway here we are. 1034 00:56:48,506 --> 00:56:51,041 August 22nd. 1035 00:56:51,108 --> 00:56:51,942 It's 1036 00:56:52,009 --> 00:56:53,978 amazing how things turn around. 1037 00:56:57,314 --> 00:57:02,620 Tami went and got those tapes, came back, and handed 'em to me. 1038 00:57:02,687 --> 00:57:06,290 I handed her the tape of her and her sister's conversation. 1039 00:57:08,125 --> 00:57:09,494 Since then, everything's been fine. 1040 00:57:09,560 --> 00:57:13,998 There hasn't been this gut feeling of not trusting I think. 1041 00:57:17,001 --> 00:57:19,537 Ugh, I'm gonna get a pig nose now. 1042 00:57:24,008 --> 00:57:26,443 >> Tami: It's 8:50 in the morning. 1043 00:57:26,511 --> 00:57:28,546 Rick's not home. 1044 00:57:28,613 --> 00:57:30,648 He's got a lot of building to do outside, 1045 00:57:30,715 --> 00:57:33,250 but for some reason he wanted to go party. 1046 00:57:33,317 --> 00:57:36,954 And do his drugs. 1047 00:57:37,021 --> 00:57:40,357 Um, lets see. 1048 00:57:40,424 --> 00:57:43,260 I just don't let it bother me anymore. 1049 00:57:43,327 --> 00:57:46,764 I just wanted it on record 1050 00:57:50,568 --> 00:57:55,172 that Mr. good guy is not so good all the time. 1051 00:57:55,239 --> 00:58:00,545 Um, anyway.. 1052 00:58:07,384 --> 00:58:10,821 >> Rick: Well here I gone and screwed up again, 1053 00:58:10,888 --> 00:58:14,692 with the substance abuse. 1054 00:58:16,293 --> 00:58:19,396 Tami's just smiling and happy when I came home. 1055 00:58:25,302 --> 00:58:30,941 The shame of sabotaging everything is hurting me. 1056 00:58:31,008 --> 00:58:35,846 Got to focus, got to find a way to focus. 1057 00:58:35,913 --> 00:58:38,883 'Cause I just can't control it. 1058 00:58:41,018 --> 00:58:44,154 >> Rick: This is babysitting. 1059 00:58:44,221 --> 00:58:45,623 It ain't bad. 1060 00:58:52,029 --> 00:58:53,731 I got to enjoy it. 1061 00:58:58,202 --> 00:59:01,972 And always always be prepared. 1062 00:59:02,039 --> 00:59:03,741 >> Rick Jr.: Stop don't smoke. 1063 00:59:03,808 --> 00:59:05,910 Don't do it. 1064 00:59:07,444 --> 00:59:09,046 >> Rick: What? 1065 00:59:09,113 --> 00:59:10,881 >> Tami- that gun. 1066 00:59:10,948 --> 00:59:11,949 >> Rick: I don't trust you, 1067 00:59:12,016 --> 00:59:12,883 im afraid youll kill me in my sleep. 1068 00:59:12,950 --> 00:59:13,784 >> Tami: Will you be quiet? 1069 00:59:13,851 --> 00:59:15,252 You have a son here. 1070 00:59:15,319 --> 00:59:18,188 He's sitting here saying all kinds of bad stuff in front 1071 00:59:18,255 --> 00:59:19,990 of Ricky, and Ricky's sitting here listening 1072 00:59:20,057 --> 00:59:21,091 to everything he's saying. 1073 00:59:21,158 --> 00:59:22,226 >> Rick: Give me the phone. 1074 00:59:22,292 --> 00:59:23,894 >> Tami: Get your hand away from me. 1075 00:59:23,961 --> 00:59:25,029 >> Rick: Give me the phone. 1076 00:59:25,095 --> 00:59:26,496 >> Tami: Get your hand away from me 1077 00:59:26,563 --> 00:59:27,632 >> Rick: Give- 1078 00:59:27,698 --> 00:59:29,900 >> Tami: Get your hand away from me. 1079 00:59:29,967 --> 00:59:32,903 Don't kick me or I will turn you into the police. 1080 00:59:32,970 --> 00:59:35,673 >> Rick: Then don't kick at me. 1081 00:59:35,740 --> 00:59:38,375 >> Tami: Then leave me alone. I am talking on the phone. 1082 00:59:41,045 --> 00:59:41,712 >> Ricky: Look what you started? 1083 00:59:41,779 --> 00:59:44,314 >> Tami: You started it. 1084 00:59:44,381 --> 00:59:46,483 Come here Ricky. 1085 00:59:48,285 --> 00:59:49,519 >> Rick: Do you realize when you tell the police 1086 00:59:49,586 --> 00:59:51,889 that you struck me first you're going to jail 1087 00:59:51,956 --> 00:59:53,357 >> Tami: I don't care. 1088 00:59:53,423 --> 00:59:54,692 and then they're gonna take me to jail for hitting you. 1089 00:59:54,759 --> 00:59:56,126 And then they're taking the kids to health services. 1090 00:59:56,193 --> 00:59:57,628 I did not hit you I threw a piece of clothing at you. 1091 00:59:57,695 --> 00:59:59,997 >> Rick: The kids are gonna go to a county facility you idiot. 1092 01:00:00,064 --> 01:00:01,932 >> Tami: You're the idiot. >> Rick: Don't you know the law? 1093 01:00:01,999 --> 01:00:04,969 Don't you know the law? 1094 01:00:16,013 --> 01:00:19,116 >> Tami: I threw a piece of Dusty's clothing 1095 01:00:19,183 --> 01:00:20,951 at him and he came up here- 1096 01:00:21,018 --> 01:00:23,954 >> Rick: -and hit me in the eye with a metal clip. 1097 01:00:24,021 --> 01:00:26,356 >> Tami: just calm down it's ok just give me the gun 1098 01:00:26,423 --> 01:00:28,625 and then I walked away from the fight 1099 01:00:28,693 --> 01:00:31,328 and he started beating the crap out of me. 1100 01:00:31,395 --> 01:00:33,463 >> Rick: Tell him tell him him to call my mother who was 1101 01:00:33,530 --> 01:00:35,132 on the phone when you hit me in the eye. 1102 01:00:35,199 --> 01:00:37,067 Tell him to call my mother 1103 01:00:37,134 --> 01:00:38,969 >> Tami: Get away from me. 1104 01:00:39,036 --> 01:00:40,838 >> Rick: Tell him to call my mother who was on the phone 1105 01:00:40,905 --> 01:00:43,974 when you hit me with that metal buckle in the eye 1106 01:00:44,041 --> 01:00:48,478 >> Tami: Ricky just witnessed all of this. 1107 01:00:52,116 --> 01:00:52,850 >> Rick: I didn't do anything. 1108 01:00:52,917 --> 01:00:54,184 It fell over 1109 01:00:54,251 --> 01:00:59,957 >> Rick Jr.: Why'd you knock it over? 1110 01:01:00,024 --> 01:01:04,261 >> Tami: I called the police. 1111 01:01:04,328 --> 01:01:07,798 >> Rick: It's because they know all the false reports over here. 1112 01:01:07,865 --> 01:01:10,000 >> Rick Jr.: What did you do to my mama? 1113 01:01:10,067 --> 01:01:12,903 >> Rick: I didn't do anything to your mama Ricky. 1114 01:01:12,970 --> 01:01:15,405 Your mama hit me in the eye. 1115 01:01:15,472 --> 01:01:18,909 >> Tami: He told me that he'd take the kids away from me. 1116 01:01:18,976 --> 01:01:21,979 He told me I'm a bad mother and that 1117 01:01:22,046 --> 01:01:24,982 he's gonna take me to court and get the kids away from me. 1118 01:01:25,049 --> 01:01:27,184 >> Rick: Honey I got it all recorded on tape 1119 01:01:27,251 --> 01:01:30,087 after you said id never see them again, ok? 1120 01:01:30,154 --> 01:01:31,221 >> Tami: I didn't say that. 1121 01:01:31,288 --> 01:01:32,689 >> Rick: You take you take them away 1122 01:01:32,757 --> 01:01:35,392 where I wont see them again, yes you'll never see them again. 1123 01:01:38,095 --> 01:01:39,229 >> Rick: I know. 1124 01:01:39,296 --> 01:01:41,231 Your mother's got some mental problems. 1125 01:01:41,298 --> 01:01:43,000 >> Rick Jr.: Where you going? 1126 01:01:43,067 --> 01:01:43,734 >> Rick: Just out to the truck. 1127 01:01:43,801 --> 01:01:44,735 You wanna come out? 1128 01:01:44,802 --> 01:01:45,903 >> Rick Jr.: Yeah. 1129 01:01:45,970 --> 01:01:46,737 >> Tami: No 1130 01:01:46,804 --> 01:01:48,038 >> Rick: Leave him alone. 1131 01:01:48,105 --> 01:01:49,506 >> Tami: It's cold out there. 1132 01:01:49,573 --> 01:01:50,975 He'll get.. 1133 01:01:57,114 --> 01:01:59,249 >> Rick Jr.: No my mom don't want to. 1134 01:01:59,316 --> 01:02:01,351 >> Rick: Your mom or your dad? 1135 01:02:01,418 --> 01:02:04,955 >> Tami: My mom and my dad is not... 1136 01:02:05,022 --> 01:02:06,757 Leave me alone Rick stop! 1137 01:02:06,824 --> 01:02:07,958 Stop! 1138 01:02:10,027 --> 01:02:11,028 >> Rick: What are you doing with my phone?! 1139 01:02:11,095 --> 01:02:13,931 >> Tami: Give me that! 1140 01:02:15,032 --> 01:02:16,366 >> Rick: You tell your side of the story. 1141 01:02:16,433 --> 01:02:19,436 You don't want no other side told. 1142 01:02:27,344 --> 01:02:28,545 >> Rick: Don't worry about it. 1143 01:02:28,612 --> 01:02:30,948 I'm sure she's getting ready to shoot me now. 1144 01:02:36,053 --> 01:02:37,387 She's calling the police to take daddy away. 1145 01:02:37,454 --> 01:02:38,856 She broke- 1146 01:02:44,862 --> 01:02:48,098 >> Rick Jr.: Why'd you take the phone away from my mama? 1147 01:02:48,165 --> 01:02:51,468 >> Rick: So I talked to your grandpa. 1148 01:03:07,284 --> 01:03:08,685 >> Rick: Kenneth? 1149 01:03:08,752 --> 01:03:13,824 Hi, um there's been no problem here and no violence other 1150 01:03:13,891 --> 01:03:16,026 than the fact that while I was talking to my mom 1151 01:03:16,093 --> 01:03:19,396 and my mom was calming me down, Tami came up 1152 01:03:19,463 --> 01:03:22,132 and slung a metal buckle into my right eye 1153 01:03:22,199 --> 01:03:24,334 and blinded my right eye. 1154 01:03:24,401 --> 01:03:28,338 I freaked out, she started kicking me, and yes- I did. 1155 01:03:28,405 --> 01:03:30,407 I hit her. 1156 01:03:30,474 --> 01:03:32,309 I apologize for it, you know 1157 01:03:32,376 --> 01:03:34,411 that that is not the kind of person I am. 1158 01:03:34,478 --> 01:03:37,447 But when somebody blindsides you from behind 1159 01:03:37,514 --> 01:03:41,051 and literally digs your eye out it's a little painful 1160 01:03:41,118 --> 01:03:43,653 and all you do is react. 1161 01:03:43,720 --> 01:03:48,926 So you need to talk to her. All right? 1162 01:03:48,993 --> 01:03:50,260 She's on the phone with the cops right now. 1163 01:03:50,327 --> 01:03:52,629 I'm sure they'll be arriving at any moment. 1164 01:03:57,534 --> 01:03:59,769 >> Rick Jr.: Is the police here? 1165 01:03:59,836 --> 01:04:01,005 Are they? 1166 01:04:01,071 --> 01:04:03,140 >> Rick: Yep. They're here to take daddy away. 1167 01:04:03,207 --> 01:04:04,942 >> Rick Jr.: Why? 1168 01:04:05,009 --> 01:04:06,176 >> Rick: Come on in. >> Police officer: Hi there. 1169 01:04:06,243 --> 01:04:07,244 >> Rick: Come on in, officer. 1170 01:04:07,311 --> 01:04:09,579 No weapons. 1171 01:04:09,646 --> 01:04:10,680 >> Police officer: Hi buddy, how are you? 1172 01:04:10,747 --> 01:04:11,982 >> Rick: That's Ricky by the way. 1173 01:04:12,049 --> 01:04:13,183 >> Police officer: Hi Ricky. 1174 01:04:13,250 --> 01:04:15,953 >> Rick: Just plain ole police sticker. 1175 01:04:16,020 --> 01:04:17,955 Remember when you got into the police car last week? 1176 01:04:18,022 --> 01:04:19,256 >> Police officer: How are ya bud? 1177 01:04:19,323 --> 01:04:20,157 >> Rick: He's scared. 1178 01:04:20,224 --> 01:04:22,159 He's just seen a lot tonight. 1179 01:04:22,226 --> 01:04:23,260 >> Police officer: Ok 1180 01:04:23,327 --> 01:04:24,461 >> Rick: Come on please, make yourself- 1181 01:04:24,528 --> 01:04:25,795 >> Police officer: Is your wife in here? 1182 01:04:25,862 --> 01:04:28,065 >> Rick: No she's in my study. 1183 01:04:28,132 --> 01:04:29,799 Father and one with her... 1184 01:04:29,866 --> 01:04:31,068 >> Male Police officer: Why don't you talk 1185 01:04:31,135 --> 01:04:32,469 to this police officer right here 1186 01:04:32,536 --> 01:04:35,172 >> Rick: Ok, let me- if I can get a lighter please. 1187 01:04:35,239 --> 01:04:36,974 >> Female Police officer: If you don't, If you don't mind- 1188 01:04:37,041 --> 01:04:38,008 >> Rick: Do you have a lighter? 1189 01:04:38,075 --> 01:04:39,243 >> Female Police officer: No - 1190 01:04:39,309 --> 01:04:40,444 >> Rick: Ma'am I have to have a cigarette. 1191 01:04:40,510 --> 01:04:42,079 >> Rick: I know, I've gone through this 1192 01:04:42,146 --> 01:04:45,515 with a traffic cop before and my wife told me I can't smoke. 1193 01:04:45,582 --> 01:04:47,117 >> Police officer: No sir, right now I don't want you 1194 01:04:47,184 --> 01:04:48,318 to light that cigarette. 1195 01:04:48,385 --> 01:04:49,286 >> Rick: I'm going to light a cigarette. 1196 01:04:49,353 --> 01:04:50,354 >> Police officer: Sir? 1197 01:04:50,420 --> 01:04:51,555 >> Rick: You don't understand I'm 1198 01:04:51,621 --> 01:04:54,925 under medication I have a doctor's prescription. 1199 01:04:54,992 --> 01:04:55,625 >> Police officer: Ok then you shouldn't be smoking 1200 01:04:55,692 --> 01:04:56,726 but the point is- 1201 01:04:56,793 --> 01:04:58,996 >> Rick: My doctor will you different. 1202 01:04:59,063 --> 01:04:59,729 >> Police officer: Rick. 1203 01:04:59,796 --> 01:05:01,065 >> Rick: Yes, sir? 1204 01:05:01,131 --> 01:05:03,033 >> Police officer: Just hold on for a couple minutes. 1205 01:05:03,100 --> 01:05:04,301 >> Rick: I don't mind smoking outside. 1206 01:05:04,368 --> 01:05:05,635 >> Rick Jr.: Mom's right here. 1207 01:05:05,702 --> 01:05:07,071 >> Police officer: What where saying is we want you 1208 01:05:07,137 --> 01:05:10,740 to hold off smoking until we get this- just have a seat 1209 01:05:10,807 --> 01:05:11,942 and we'll go from there.. 1210 01:05:12,009 --> 01:05:15,045 >> Tami: I gotta get off the phone 1211 01:05:15,112 --> 01:05:16,947 >> Rick: Tell em- 1212 01:05:17,014 --> 01:05:18,915 >> Police officer: Let me look at the back of your head. 1213 01:05:18,983 --> 01:05:20,117 >> Rick: No in the eye. 1214 01:05:20,184 --> 01:05:22,953 >> Police officer: Oh ok 1215 01:05:23,020 --> 01:05:24,721 >> Rick: Right eye. 1216 01:05:26,023 --> 01:05:27,824 >> Police officer: Let me see your other side. 1217 01:05:29,193 --> 01:05:31,328 Ok. Whereabouts in the eye. 1218 01:05:31,395 --> 01:05:32,462 >> Rick: Right in the eye. 1219 01:05:32,529 --> 01:05:33,263 >> Police officer: Right in the eye? 1220 01:05:33,330 --> 01:05:34,965 >> Rick: Yes sir. 1221 01:05:35,032 --> 01:05:36,933 >> Police officer: Let me look at your other eye there. 1222 01:05:40,037 --> 01:05:41,972 Ok and that was the only place contact was made with you. 1223 01:05:42,039 --> 01:05:43,407 >> Rick: Yes sir, that's correct. 1224 01:05:43,473 --> 01:05:46,343 Has it been cleared up as to who threw the first blow? 1225 01:05:46,410 --> 01:05:48,745 >> Police officer: I've got her her version of what happened. 1226 01:05:48,812 --> 01:05:50,981 >> Rick: Did she admit to that is what I'm asking ya? 1227 01:05:51,048 --> 01:05:52,983 >> Police officer: I'm not going to talk to you while that's on. 1228 01:05:53,050 --> 01:05:56,186 >> Rick: Officer, this this is a press camera 1229 01:05:56,253 --> 01:05:58,288 >> Police officer: That's a Sony handicam. 1230 01:05:58,355 --> 01:05:59,889 >> Rick: Would you like to see my current Dallas 1231 01:05:59,956 --> 01:06:01,358 police credentials? 1232 01:06:01,425 --> 01:06:02,892 >> Police officer: I don't doubt that you have them. 1233 01:06:02,959 --> 01:06:04,694 >> Rick: Well then this is a press camera 1234 01:06:04,761 --> 01:06:06,696 >> Police officer: At this point you are, 1235 01:06:06,763 --> 01:06:07,998 are you in a working capacity? 1236 01:06:08,065 --> 01:06:09,433 >> Rick: Yes I am sir. 1237 01:06:09,499 --> 01:06:10,967 >> Police officer: In that case as far as that's concerned 1238 01:06:11,035 --> 01:06:15,972 in a working condition you can talk to our, uh, 1239 01:06:16,040 --> 01:06:17,507 public information officer. 1240 01:06:17,574 --> 01:06:19,076 >> Rick: Well, The camera doesn't go off 1241 01:06:19,143 --> 01:06:21,611 and if you don't wanna answer those questions then then go 1242 01:06:21,678 --> 01:06:23,147 ahead and do what you have to do. 1243 01:06:23,213 --> 01:06:26,583 >> Police officer: Ok, then at this point I need you to stand 1244 01:06:26,650 --> 01:06:29,419 up for me please and place your hands behind your back. 1245 01:06:29,486 --> 01:06:30,587 >> Rick: Okay 1246 01:06:30,654 --> 01:06:31,421 >> Police officer: We're gonna do this this 1247 01:06:31,488 --> 01:06:32,922 as easy as possible. 1248 01:06:32,989 --> 01:06:34,291 >> Rick: I have no problem with this. 1249 01:06:34,358 --> 01:06:36,560 >> Police officer: Oh I, you're being very cooperative. 1250 01:06:45,369 --> 01:06:47,537 >> Rick: Yeah but I wanna know why why my children aren't being 1251 01:06:47,604 --> 01:06:49,806 placed in a protective custody. 1252 01:06:49,873 --> 01:06:51,141 >> Police officer: Let's go 1253 01:06:51,208 --> 01:06:53,343 >> Rick: My my wife has a loaded handgun 1254 01:06:53,410 --> 01:06:54,944 and is not stable and her own father 1255 01:06:55,011 --> 01:06:57,247 >> Police officer: No your wife does not have a loaded handgun. 1256 01:06:57,314 --> 01:06:59,549 >> Rick: Her own father said she should not have it. 1257 01:06:59,616 --> 01:07:01,651 Officer, I want my children held 1258 01:07:01,718 --> 01:07:04,454 under protective custody from my wife. 1259 01:07:04,521 --> 01:07:06,723 She is not stable, understand? 1260 01:07:17,000 --> 01:07:21,438 >> Rick: Two weeks ago I made a trip to Oklahoma city. 1261 01:07:22,906 --> 01:07:25,942 My purpose was to go to St. Louis 1262 01:07:30,013 --> 01:07:34,884 and to confront and kill my father. 1263 01:07:34,951 --> 01:07:39,356 I drove five hundred miles, got there about 1264 01:07:42,459 --> 01:07:46,963 one in the morning and 1265 01:07:47,030 --> 01:07:56,039 set there with a 22 rifle and 2 gallon gas can trying to figure 1266 01:07:56,373 --> 01:07:58,975 out should I burn him down 1267 01:07:59,042 --> 01:08:02,512 or should I kill him and get it over with? 1268 01:08:02,579 --> 01:08:05,915 >> Rick: I guess his telling me that he didn't wanna give me 1269 01:08:05,982 --> 01:08:10,887 or loan me any money and maybe I needed to lose everything 1270 01:08:10,954 --> 01:08:13,290 and live on the streets and 1271 01:08:14,391 --> 01:08:17,927 how he didn't wanna support another woman meaning Tami. 1272 01:08:17,994 --> 01:08:19,896 He'd already supported two. 1273 01:08:24,000 --> 01:08:28,538 It made me realize that he's not my dad, he's not my father. 1274 01:08:28,605 --> 01:08:31,841 Then I sat there with a rifle loaded ready 1275 01:08:31,908 --> 01:08:35,145 to kill a man that I hate, 1276 01:08:35,212 --> 01:08:39,349 a man that's destroyed my family and I just couldn't do it. 1277 01:08:39,416 --> 01:08:42,085 I just couldn't do it. 1278 01:08:44,621 --> 01:08:45,822 But - 1279 01:08:47,023 --> 01:08:49,125 odds are, I may have to. 1280 01:08:53,096 --> 01:08:55,932 >> Rick: Dusty and Ricky and Tami, 1281 01:08:59,035 --> 01:09:01,671 I guess the only reason I make this recording is 1282 01:09:01,738 --> 01:09:09,913 because I don't want you to think I made a mistake in life. 1283 01:09:15,952 --> 01:09:18,555 I know what I'm setting myself up for. 1284 01:09:21,958 --> 01:09:25,495 I'm setting myself up to die in the next few days. 1285 01:09:25,562 --> 01:09:28,965 I'm just fucked up in the head. 1286 01:09:29,032 --> 01:09:32,101 The last seven years or so have just been so crazy. 1287 01:09:32,168 --> 01:09:39,008 I've just kind of lost my mind. 1288 01:09:39,075 --> 01:09:41,878 I just don't wanna live anymore. 1289 01:09:43,447 --> 01:09:45,582 >> Rick: Now who says an intoxicated man can't go out 1290 01:09:45,649 --> 01:09:47,751 and blow out a little anger? 1291 01:09:59,396 --> 01:10:00,964 Whoa! 1292 01:10:07,070 --> 01:10:09,406 >> Rick: I wrecked the jeep last night. 1293 01:10:13,076 --> 01:10:19,048 I've virtually destroyed my life at this point. 1294 01:10:19,115 --> 01:10:23,520 Because of drugs, I've lied to everybody I know. 1295 01:10:29,426 --> 01:10:36,065 It's not easy to sit in front of this camera 1296 01:10:36,132 --> 01:10:38,835 and admit that that I've failed 1297 01:10:43,440 --> 01:10:44,974 in a big way. 1298 01:10:45,041 --> 01:10:49,012 I don't know what happened to the old Rick. 1299 01:10:53,517 --> 01:10:58,655 But I guess, getting fired from Inside has, 1300 01:10:59,723 --> 01:11:03,993 has hurt me a lot deeper than I think or know. 1301 01:11:04,060 --> 01:11:08,432 I felt I'e gone down, I've gone down as far as you can go. 1302 01:11:11,067 --> 01:11:14,037 But I love my kids and I love my wife. 1303 01:11:17,140 --> 01:11:22,512 And I have to find a way to salvage this. 1304 01:11:22,579 --> 01:11:27,417 And the only way I can do it is bear down 1305 01:11:27,484 --> 01:11:30,787 and grit my teeth and do it. 1306 01:11:35,091 --> 01:11:35,759 It's never too late. 1307 01:11:35,825 --> 01:11:39,295 It's never too late. 1308 01:11:42,065 --> 01:11:47,537 >> Rick Jr.: Oh that's broke because daddy crashed again. 1309 01:11:47,604 --> 01:11:48,938 >> Rick: Well tonight I go 1310 01:11:49,005 --> 01:11:52,241 into rehab hopefully this wont be happening no more. 1311 01:11:52,308 --> 01:11:54,310 Jesus Christ. 1312 01:11:59,082 --> 01:12:01,351 >> Tami: Phew, it's gone be a tough one. 1313 01:12:01,418 --> 01:12:03,219 But we're tough. 1314 01:12:03,286 --> 01:12:04,821 We are tough family. 1315 01:12:04,888 --> 01:12:10,460 We gotta get rick into rehab, me out of school, 1316 01:12:10,527 --> 01:12:13,430 get rick a job, I get a job. 1317 01:12:13,497 --> 01:12:15,164 We gotta get our family ogether. 1318 01:12:15,231 --> 01:12:17,867 We're just going through hard times right now 1319 01:12:17,934 --> 01:12:21,971 and it's gonna work out. 1320 01:12:22,038 --> 01:12:24,240 One way or the other. 1321 01:12:24,307 --> 01:12:26,309 >> Rick Jr.: Momma? 1322 01:12:28,111 --> 01:12:29,979 >> Tami: What? 1323 01:12:30,046 --> 01:12:30,980 What is it? 1324 01:12:31,047 --> 01:12:33,282 >> Rick Jr.: I want dad home? 1325 01:12:33,349 --> 01:12:34,951 >> Tami: You want what? 1326 01:12:38,054 --> 01:12:39,956 You want daddy to come home? 1327 01:12:43,427 --> 01:12:46,963 >> Tami: These precious baby boys. 1328 01:12:47,030 --> 01:12:49,999 Precious. 1329 01:12:50,066 --> 01:12:52,201 Their lives are gonna be destroyed 1330 01:12:52,268 --> 01:12:57,006 if their dad doesn't straighten his act up. 1331 01:12:57,073 --> 01:12:59,008 We could have it all. 1332 01:12:59,075 --> 01:13:01,110 We have a beautiful family. 1333 01:13:01,177 --> 01:13:05,181 >> Rick Jr.: Momma? What is it? 1334 01:13:06,082 --> 01:13:09,085 >> Tami: We could just have it all. 1335 01:13:09,152 --> 01:13:12,489 >> Rick Jr.: What. It's ok mama. 1336 01:13:12,556 --> 01:13:14,624 >> Tami: I know sweetie I'm sorry. 1337 01:13:14,691 --> 01:13:17,193 Mom's just getting a little emotional 1338 01:13:17,260 --> 01:13:20,396 because she loves her family so much. 1339 01:13:24,000 --> 01:13:26,736 >> Rick: Daddy's slept on concrete floors of jails, 1340 01:13:26,803 --> 01:13:29,138 jail cells, padded cells, um, 1341 01:13:29,205 --> 01:13:36,145 uh lumpy um bug infested uh psycho ward cells suicide-watch 1342 01:13:36,212 --> 01:13:41,117 cells uh the, um, mental hospital cells. 1343 01:13:41,184 --> 01:13:45,955 Sure was nice to sleep at home last night. 1344 01:13:46,022 --> 01:13:48,224 >> Tami: We made it. 1345 01:13:48,291 --> 01:13:49,459 We're all together. 1346 01:13:49,526 --> 01:13:50,059 >> Rick: Barely. 1347 01:13:50,126 --> 01:13:50,960 But we made it. 1348 01:13:51,027 --> 01:13:52,061 >> Rick Jr.: momma? 1349 01:13:52,128 --> 01:13:55,031 >> Tami: Momma likes this new man. 1350 01:13:55,098 --> 01:13:57,166 >> Rick: Happy thanksgiving momma and all the kids. 1351 01:13:57,233 --> 01:13:58,502 Daddy's cooking. 1352 01:13:58,568 --> 01:14:01,037 >> Tami: Daddy made all our breakfasts this morning. 1353 01:14:01,104 --> 01:14:02,772 >> Rick: Yeah daddy made breakfast. 1354 01:14:02,839 --> 01:14:03,873 Is it good Ricky? 1355 01:14:03,940 --> 01:14:05,942 >> Tami: Mhm. 1356 01:14:06,009 --> 01:14:07,811 >> Daddy's making breakfast. 1357 01:14:09,312 --> 01:14:12,281 >> Rick: I just can't believe we made it this far. 1358 01:14:12,348 --> 01:14:13,182 >> Tami: Why not? 1359 01:14:13,249 --> 01:14:14,383 >> Rick: Cause now I feel like 1360 01:14:14,450 --> 01:14:16,986 we're gonna no doubt make it all the way. 1361 01:14:17,053 --> 01:14:18,454 >> Tami: Don't you wanna count your blessings? 1362 01:14:18,522 --> 01:14:22,191 >> Rick: I'm counting 'em but there's too many to count. 1363 01:14:22,258 --> 01:14:23,893 >> Rick: I don't know why you kept me. 1364 01:14:23,960 --> 01:14:25,962 >> Tami: I love you 1365 01:14:26,029 --> 01:14:27,263 >> Rick: Why'd you go through all that and stay? 1366 01:14:27,330 --> 01:14:28,798 >> Tami: Because I knew this person right here was 1367 01:14:28,865 --> 01:14:30,166 in there somewhere. 1368 01:14:30,233 --> 01:14:31,968 We just had to find him. 1369 01:14:34,871 --> 01:14:35,371 >> Rick: Thank you. 1370 01:14:35,438 --> 01:14:36,205 Thank you. 1371 01:14:36,272 --> 01:14:37,941 Thank you. 1372 01:14:42,145 --> 01:14:47,984 >> Rick: So Monday January 20, 1997. 1373 01:14:49,052 --> 01:14:51,120 I'll tell you pain. 1374 01:14:51,187 --> 01:14:56,292 Pain is filling out the papers to go bankrupt, 1375 01:14:56,359 --> 01:15:01,030 not having a job, being two weeks away 1376 01:15:01,097 --> 01:15:05,935 from losing your house. 1377 01:15:06,002 --> 01:15:07,904 And just not knowing what's gonna happen. 1378 01:15:12,008 --> 01:15:17,046 Being straight is a lot more painful than hiding 1379 01:15:17,113 --> 01:15:18,815 from all your problems. 1380 01:15:18,882 --> 01:15:21,918 But you know what's been bugging me more than anything? 1381 01:15:25,021 --> 01:15:28,057 I've cried a couple times because a couple 1382 01:15:28,124 --> 01:15:32,762 of weeks ago Tami went to buy Ricky's shoes and, um, 1383 01:15:32,829 --> 01:15:37,967 had to go to a second hand store to buy him a pair of shoes. 1384 01:15:38,034 --> 01:15:40,369 Less than two weeks from being foreclosed on, 1385 01:15:40,436 --> 01:15:45,041 and Ricky is wearing someone else's second hand shoes. 1386 01:15:48,044 --> 01:15:50,179 >> Voicemail: Hello Rick, this is Cliff- General Manager 1387 01:15:50,246 --> 01:15:54,050 of K-TEN television in Denison,Texas 1388 01:15:54,117 --> 01:15:55,952 >> Rick: I got the job. 1389 01:16:00,056 --> 01:16:04,594 Rick Kirkham, news director, main anchorman 1390 01:16:04,661 --> 01:16:12,902 for K-TEN television, Sherman Denison Texas. 1391 01:16:12,969 --> 01:16:14,838 I got the job. 1392 01:16:17,173 --> 01:16:20,910 >> Rick Jr.: My dad's the man. 1393 01:16:20,977 --> 01:16:24,113 >> Rick: April Fool's Day, my first back day at work 1394 01:16:24,180 --> 01:16:25,481 >> Rick: I'll be back in a little while. 1395 01:16:25,548 --> 01:16:26,349 Listen- 1396 01:16:26,415 --> 01:16:27,450 >> Rick Jr.: Don't leave me. 1397 01:16:27,516 --> 01:16:28,918 >> Rick: I'll be back in a little bit. 1398 01:16:28,985 --> 01:16:31,120 >> Rick Jr.: You can't leave me. 1399 01:16:31,187 --> 01:16:32,221 >> Rick: Daddy's gotta go to work. 1400 01:16:32,288 --> 01:16:35,124 I'll be back in a little bit. 1401 01:16:35,191 --> 01:16:36,793 >> Tami: Ssh, baby. 1402 01:16:44,267 --> 01:16:46,636 >> Anchorman: In case you just tuned in a few minutes ago, 1403 01:16:46,703 --> 01:16:49,939 this is our new anchor and news director here Rick Kirkham. 1404 01:16:50,006 --> 01:16:51,174 And welcome aboard. 1405 01:16:51,240 --> 01:16:52,642 >> Rick: thank you, it's great to be here. 1406 01:16:52,709 --> 01:16:53,943 You know Allen and I worked together fifteen years ago. 1407 01:16:54,010 --> 01:16:55,344 >> Anchorwoman: I know I can't believe it. 1408 01:16:55,411 --> 01:16:56,846 You're dating yourself. 1409 01:16:56,913 --> 01:16:58,547 >> Rick: It's kind of- well we were six years old at the time. 1410 01:16:58,614 --> 01:16:59,215 >> Anchorwoman: Right. 1411 01:17:00,083 --> 01:17:00,616 >> Tami: What's wrong honey? 1412 01:17:00,684 --> 01:17:01,918 >> Rick: Moving. 1413 01:17:01,985 --> 01:17:04,320 >> Tami: What are you moving? 1414 01:17:04,387 --> 01:17:07,323 >> Rick: Moving from Plano to Pottsboro Texas. 1415 01:17:07,390 --> 01:17:08,758 >> Tami: Pottsboro, Texas? 1416 01:17:08,825 --> 01:17:11,928 That sounds like a hillbilly place. 1417 01:17:11,995 --> 01:17:13,229 >> Rick: It is. 1418 01:17:13,296 --> 01:17:16,332 >> Rick: Hey family, we're home for the first time. 1419 01:17:16,399 --> 01:17:17,934 Everybody ready to go to our home. 1420 01:17:18,001 --> 01:17:19,903 Living a log cabin life. 1421 01:17:26,209 --> 01:17:29,545 >> Rick: What are ya doing? 1422 01:17:29,612 --> 01:17:33,382 Please do not flush the toilet anymore. 1423 01:17:33,449 --> 01:17:34,851 >> Rick: How do you like your log cabin? 1424 01:17:34,918 --> 01:17:36,786 >> Tami: I love my log cabin. 1425 01:17:36,853 --> 01:17:40,924 I feel like I'm in Arkansas. 1426 01:17:43,026 --> 01:17:44,660 >> Tami likes it and I like it. 1427 01:17:44,728 --> 01:17:47,964 If Tami likes it then I really like it. 1428 01:17:48,031 --> 01:17:49,298 >> Tami: And the boys love it. 1429 01:17:49,365 --> 01:17:50,700 >> Rick: The boys love it. 1430 01:17:50,767 --> 01:17:51,968 The boys love it 1431 01:17:52,035 --> 01:17:55,504 >> Rick: Those are my boys those are my boys. 1432 01:17:55,571 --> 01:17:56,973 The Kirkham boys. 1433 01:17:57,040 --> 01:17:58,007 >> Rick: Well I have to admit. 1434 01:17:58,074 --> 01:18:00,476 This is a little hard to believe. 1435 01:18:00,543 --> 01:18:03,579 I've been news director here in Denison Texas. 1436 01:18:03,646 --> 01:18:05,514 It's just so weird being a news director. 1437 01:18:05,581 --> 01:18:07,216 I mean, it's weird enough being a news anchor. 1438 01:18:07,283 --> 01:18:11,988 The senior news anchor but being a news director is just whoa. 1439 01:18:12,055 --> 01:18:13,389 I guess the greatest thing about working here, 1440 01:18:13,456 --> 01:18:15,224 I got a bar downstairs. 1441 01:18:15,291 --> 01:18:17,526 Go down to the bar have a few drinks come back up. 1442 01:18:17,593 --> 01:18:19,829 We joke so much on set. It's so much fun. 1443 01:18:19,896 --> 01:18:22,932 This is the fun part I guess in the news business. 1444 01:18:22,999 --> 01:18:26,235 Doing local television in a smaller market 1445 01:18:26,302 --> 01:18:29,739 where you can get away with murder and have fun. 1446 01:18:29,806 --> 01:18:31,207 I love it. 1447 01:18:33,109 --> 01:18:37,346 >> Rick: Well I haven't made a videotape diary entry 1448 01:18:37,413 --> 01:18:39,849 in several months. 1449 01:18:39,916 --> 01:18:43,619 Life has been so fucked up. 1450 01:18:50,026 --> 01:18:53,029 I'm on a paid suspension, 1451 01:18:55,031 --> 01:19:00,636 after my boss asked for my resignation. 1452 01:19:03,506 --> 01:19:07,643 Nine months into my job at K-TEN as news director and anchorman. 1453 01:19:16,019 --> 01:19:18,988 I don't even know if I can be in this business anymore. 1454 01:19:19,055 --> 01:19:23,960 How can you be in the public eye with a past like mine? 1455 01:19:24,027 --> 01:19:27,897 This shit is killing my wife. 1456 01:19:27,964 --> 01:19:30,499 It's absolutely killing Tami. 1457 01:19:30,566 --> 01:19:33,803 Our life is being destroyed once again. 1458 01:19:33,870 --> 01:19:38,107 If I had a gun in my hand, I'd sit right here 1459 01:19:38,174 --> 01:19:45,014 in this parking lot in Ricky's school and blow my brains out. 1460 01:19:45,081 --> 01:19:47,516 Goddamn I wish I had a gun right now just 1461 01:19:47,583 --> 01:19:51,587 to blow my freaking brains out. 1462 01:19:56,359 --> 01:19:57,827 >> Anchorwoman: Finally tonight I know you know, 1463 01:19:57,894 --> 01:20:00,897 those of us here at Region 10 News regrettably bid farewell 1464 01:20:00,964 --> 01:20:03,732 to our news director and my co-anchor Rick Kirkham 1465 01:20:03,799 --> 01:20:04,834 and Rick is in our control room, 1466 01:20:04,901 --> 01:20:06,135 and Rick I understand you are off 1467 01:20:06,202 --> 01:20:07,937 to a new adventure in your career. 1468 01:20:08,004 --> 01:20:09,238 >> Rick: That's right Ash it's a little strange being on 1469 01:20:09,305 --> 01:20:10,940 this side of the camera. >> Anchorwoman: I bet 1470 01:20:11,007 --> 01:20:12,408 >> Rick: As you know I've been working on a book 1471 01:20:12,475 --> 01:20:15,011 over the last eight years about my my eight or ten years 1472 01:20:15,078 --> 01:20:17,446 at Inside Edition as senior correspondent and I kind of, 1473 01:20:17,513 --> 01:20:19,115 gotten away from that with all the extra hours here 1474 01:20:19,182 --> 01:20:20,349 at Region 10 so I've got to wrap that up 1475 01:20:20,416 --> 01:20:21,584 and get it to the publishers. 1476 01:20:21,650 --> 01:20:22,919 In addition of course my little boys Ricky 1477 01:20:22,986 --> 01:20:24,420 and Dusty haven't seen a whole lot of daddy lately. 1478 01:20:24,487 --> 01:20:25,922 Now they're gonna get to. 1479 01:20:25,989 --> 01:20:27,190 >> Anchorwoman: Well thank you and I hope you'll come back 1480 01:20:27,256 --> 01:20:28,724 and visit and promise me an autographed copy 1481 01:20:28,791 --> 01:20:29,959 of that book when it comes out. 1482 01:20:30,026 --> 01:20:30,960 >> Rick: You get the first copy. 1483 01:20:31,027 --> 01:20:32,028 >> Anchorwoman: Thanks Rick. 1484 01:20:32,095 --> 01:20:33,662 Good luck to you and we'll miss you. 1485 01:20:33,729 --> 01:20:35,664 >> Rick: It's about ten minutes to midnight. 1486 01:20:35,731 --> 01:20:38,834 December 31, 1997. 1487 01:20:38,902 --> 01:20:41,537 It's been a rough year, not as bad as last year. 1488 01:20:41,604 --> 01:20:49,078 I can only hope that 1998 is gonna be a lot better year. 1489 01:20:49,145 --> 01:20:54,017 Happy new year 1998, my last year 1490 01:20:55,251 --> 01:20:58,154 >> Tami: Whooo. 1491 01:21:01,257 --> 01:21:03,960 Yeah, god. 1492 01:21:04,027 --> 01:21:04,860 What'd it do? 1493 01:21:04,928 --> 01:21:07,563 Squirt you all over the face? 1494 01:21:07,630 --> 01:21:11,067 >> Rick: Let's hope 98 is better than 97. 1495 01:21:11,134 --> 01:21:11,867 Happy New Year 1496 01:21:11,935 --> 01:21:13,937 >> Tami: Happy New Year. 1497 01:21:17,373 --> 01:21:18,908 >> Rick: I hope we're together forever. 1498 01:21:18,975 --> 01:21:20,977 >> Tami: We will be. 1499 01:21:21,044 --> 01:21:23,947 It's on tape. 1500 01:21:25,081 --> 01:21:30,987 >> Rick: Last week, I think it was how soon can I get away? 1501 01:21:31,054 --> 01:21:32,121 >> Rick: Alright baby. 1502 01:21:32,188 --> 01:21:32,989 >> Tami: Today is all that matters. 1503 01:21:33,056 --> 01:21:33,889 >> Rick: '97 is history. 1504 01:21:33,957 --> 01:21:35,824 Let's go inside and start '98. 1505 01:21:35,891 --> 01:21:37,793 >> Tami: K, Let's get warm. 1506 01:21:56,712 --> 01:21:59,115 >> Rick: Long Saturday. 1507 01:22:01,317 --> 01:22:05,721 I'm just sitting here battling, man, to either go do drugs 1508 01:22:05,788 --> 01:22:10,326 or fight this and stay here and not do anything. 1509 01:22:10,393 --> 01:22:13,462 And I hate it. 1510 01:22:13,529 --> 01:22:16,065 I mean it's like everything inside of your fucking gut, 1511 01:22:16,132 --> 01:22:20,836 everything in your soul you fight it. 1512 01:22:22,038 --> 01:22:23,872 I fucking hate this. 1513 01:22:23,939 --> 01:22:25,208 I hate it. 1514 01:22:25,274 --> 01:22:29,245 >> Rick: It's like, at this point all you do is hope 1515 01:22:29,312 --> 01:22:32,982 that you don't fucking end up going back for more. 1516 01:22:33,049 --> 01:22:35,551 Pray to god you don't go back for more. 1517 01:22:51,067 --> 01:22:56,505 >> Rick: The bottom line is, ok I fell. 1518 01:22:56,572 --> 01:23:00,976 But I didn't fall bad. 1519 01:23:01,044 --> 01:23:06,515 I cannot remember a time in the last fifteen years 1520 01:23:06,582 --> 01:23:11,854 that I didn't go back for more for a second. 1521 01:23:15,291 --> 01:23:16,759 So I'm all right. 1522 01:23:19,462 --> 01:23:22,431 I shouldn't drank that much, I shouldn't have got that excited, 1523 01:23:22,498 --> 01:23:23,832 I shouldn't have been that lonely. 1524 01:23:23,899 --> 01:23:25,934 All the triggers fired. 1525 01:23:26,001 --> 01:23:30,439 And I, I see that. 1526 01:23:30,506 --> 01:23:32,308 But I fought it, 1527 01:23:32,375 --> 01:23:39,682 I buried my head in a pillow, and I didn't go back. 1528 01:23:57,100 --> 01:23:59,768 >> Rick: Figuring out the answer will never bring my career back, 1529 01:23:59,835 --> 01:24:02,271 it'll never bring my wife back, 1530 01:24:02,338 --> 01:24:05,174 my money my cars my fame my fortune. 1531 01:24:05,241 --> 01:24:07,376 I'll never have it again. 1532 01:24:07,443 --> 01:24:11,947 But it has brought me six years of being clean. 1533 01:24:18,354 --> 01:24:21,890 It has also given me back, the very thing 1534 01:24:21,957 --> 01:24:23,692 that helped me get clean in the first place. 1535 01:24:23,759 --> 01:24:25,928 These are my sons Ricky and Dusty. 1536 01:24:35,070 --> 01:24:39,208 Their mother, my former wife, also honors me 1537 01:24:39,275 --> 01:24:43,246 by sitting amongst you today along with my sons. 1538 01:24:44,447 --> 01:24:46,515 I promise you from experience, life isn't worth living 1539 01:24:46,582 --> 01:24:50,319 with substance abuse, but the good news is, 1540 01:24:50,386 --> 01:24:54,990 it is never too late to turn it all around. 1541 01:24:55,057 --> 01:24:56,592 Congratulations. 1542 01:25:20,416 --> 01:25:21,950 >> Rick: Here you hold that. 1543 01:25:22,017 --> 01:25:23,752 >> Dusty: I'll be taking pictures of daddy. 1544 01:25:23,819 --> 01:25:24,653 >> Rick: Ok. 1545 01:25:24,720 --> 01:25:26,355 You do that. 1546 01:25:26,422 --> 01:25:29,958 Thank you, you little wild man. 1547 01:25:30,025 --> 01:25:31,294 >> Dusty: Here ya go. 1548 01:25:31,360 --> 01:25:33,262 >> Rick: Oh yeah here you go, here's your coke. 1549 01:25:33,329 --> 01:25:33,996 >> Dusty: Thank you 1550 01:25:34,062 --> 01:25:34,863 >> Rick: I'll trade ya. 1551 01:25:34,930 --> 01:25:36,365 Thank you. 1552 01:25:36,432 --> 01:25:38,967 >> Rick: Ok, Ricky crawl back in here. 1553 01:25:39,034 --> 01:25:40,203 Gonna get cold out there. 1554 01:25:40,269 --> 01:25:43,105 Gotta stay good, we don't wanna get sick. 1555 01:25:52,147 --> 01:25:56,452 >> Rick: If I had one wish, on this Christmas Eve, 1556 01:25:56,519 --> 01:26:06,329 it would be to go back to 1993 and come out of that rehab 1557 01:26:11,367 --> 01:26:15,371 and truly have learned my lesson of drugs. 1558 01:26:15,438 --> 01:26:21,377 I just wish that my family had made it- 1559 01:26:25,080 --> 01:26:31,119 that that one marriage, one wife, the two kids, 1560 01:26:31,186 --> 01:26:35,991 maybe a third, that we had made it. 1561 01:26:41,163 --> 01:26:47,736 If I could go back in time and know what the drugs had done 1562 01:26:47,803 --> 01:26:52,541 to me and what the fame had done to me and 1563 01:26:52,608 --> 01:26:59,915 all the money I was making had done to me. 1564 01:26:59,982 --> 01:27:02,418 I would have done everything different. 1565 01:27:03,419 --> 01:27:04,820 Everything I would have done differently.